Please find me.

Some day.
Mmmkay?

So, uhm.

You make me smile. A lot.
And, your hands are really soft.
And warm. And comforting.
I realized that hearing you laugh is one of the best things to hear.
And seeing you smile is such a beautiful sight.
You make me want to become a better me.
Thanks for yesterday. :]

You see,

Its completely possible to live this life alone.
To endure each circumstance on your own.
To be follow your own rules.
To achieve without companions or sidekicks.

But easily said,
Some of us dont want to.
We want to share our dreams with someone else.
We want someone to be there when we walk along the shore.
We hope to meet someone to break free with.
We desire to have a companion.
We anticipate the day we look at our side only to see that the empty spaces between our fingertips, the personal bubble we used to have, the footsteps that only accompanied its pair are finally filled. Filled with something significant. Something of beauty.

Oh, Ria. Here we go again.

I'm tired.

I need some sort of motivation, pl0x.
I need to find something to wake up in the morning to smile about.
Well, aside from the simple thankfulness of waking up.
You know what I mean?

Time to do one of these janks.

1. You are the epitome of the best person to ever walk into my life, and to put up with me and all that I shouldnt be doing to you or to anyone else. How do you do it? I love you.
2. I want to try, simply because I want to take more chances in my life .. rather than always holding back. Im afraid that one day I'll wake up when Im 67, and wonder why I didnt do what I couldve before. You know?
3. Hm, if there is anyone I want to talk to more often, its you.
4. This past weekend, I realized how much you mean to me. It scars me to see you like that. Please let me endure the pain with you. I wish I could have hugged you.
5. Nowadays, I feel obligated. But at the same time, I want to be around you and do the things you want us to do. Dont fret! I dont want to lose you either.
6. I need a lot more of You.
7. Its about time I learn how to tolerate people like you.
8. Never will I take you for granted. Never again.
9. I dont really like it when my mom mentions you. Cause I dont want to think of the opportunity. Its just, not one Im willing to take again.
10. Youre probably trying to figure out which one is you, but I cant really say much about you. Haha. Except, that text last night made me smile. :]
11. You know, I always wonder and hope that youre doing okay. But Im pretty sure you are. Just know that I am too.
12. I'll change.

I MISS JOR.

Welcome back, Ria. The sappy romantic.

"Somethin' bout the way you look..
Somethin' bout the way you look in my eyes.
You make everything so dang easy,
So easy that I don't got to worry about a thing."

-When We Say (Juicebox) by AJ Rafael.

<3 :]

Dear Mr. King,

This substitute has a really cool accent.
Thats about it.
Come back.
Bye.

Love,
Ria.

Did you know that you make me happy?

One day, I shall repay you. I will.

These things take time, love.

Love waits! Always remember that, kay?
And what happened to taking chances?
What happened to taking risks?
What happened to avoiding the second-guessing?
What happened to not allowing yourself to overthink?
Yeah, thats right. You forgot about all that, self.

You bring natural joy to my life.
You bring me happiness.
You are beautiful.
Yes, you.
:]

You'll always be a part of me.
I know that to be a fact.
But honestly, right now..
I need some type of inspiration.
I need some type of motivation.
Im tired of being tired.
I need to live for someone.
Thats what it is.
I need to live for someone.

Aw.

Youre cute. :]
Kaybai.

Contradiction to what has been said.

Its funny that the mere thought of you instantly pleases me.
And how I tend to miss you, because I hardly see you in person anymore.
I dont think anything of it now, nor will I for a long time, I think.
But your presence seems to be one of the things to raise me up.
So thank you, beautiful piece of.. yeah. :D

And you think you know, but you really dont.
To feel the way that I do? No, you honestly dont.
To feel like youre just watching them be manipulated?
Excuse me, but I believe that you were the mastermind.
The one behind all of this. You.
So be happy, at least, that youre not where Im standing.
And my naive little mind will ring .. "ITS NOT FAIR."
But if you do get to my point, I hope I never get to yours.
Lets not trade places in that kind of way, yes?
And uh, one more thing might I add.
You should start listening to the beat of your music.
It actually explains how I feel. So translate it for you?
No thanks. Listen and tell yourself: "Sometimes, it just isnt enough."
If you seem to understand that, then why do such a thing?
Its not fair. Its not fair.

MAN.

THE SCHOOL FOUND TUMBLR AND BLOCKED IT. SHEEEEEWT.