Seems to me that everyone gets hurt by everyone. In that case, I'll settle for the one worth suffering for. The one that I'll be loving not until it hurts, but even thereafter. That's the real stuff everyone's confusing for that other thing they deem to be "love."

Hello blogger. Hello 2011.

I think I'll come here every now and then.
There's too many people lurking on tumblr.

K. Cool. :D

Only because Tumblr is down.

Man, seriously. I really dont want to experience the feeling that I can live my life without you in it. I want to talk to you. I want to be around you. I want to match with you. To cook with you. To sing with you. To cry with you. To lol with you. To tokbox with you. To be all girly and talk about boys with you. You know. Just to be the me I was when I was with you. Thats all.

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What makes this so difficult for me is that you seem so perfect, yet there are so many things that wont make this right. My feelings are so mixed up, but when I see you, I basically melt. I find myself looking for you whenever I know youre in the room. Hearing your voice makes me giggle on the inside. But maybe this is just an infatuation phase. I dont need any of that right now. I need to figure myself out. I hate this. Oh and one more thing, you told me you'd give me space if thats what I needed. But I dont want you to wait up for nothing, if thats what this comes to.

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You confuse me so much, yet you keep me coming back for more. So I do. I keep coming back to you. I keep seeking something more. Something deeper. And despite me "not being your type," you provide what I look for. Ugh, WTF. Thats pretty much how I feel about you atm.

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Omg, youre so fun to be around. HAHA. But thats it.

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Please dont be serious about that.

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Ah, thank you for you.

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I really, really cant wait to have you in my life, whoever you are. I cant wait to spend all this love on you. <3

Let's play another game, King of Monkeys.

What do you think of this project?
Man, who gives a fuuuuuuuuuuuuu-.

If you had to be Krish, what would you name your first daughter?
Definitely Krishnaaaaaaaaaaaaaa''''

If you had to spend a whole day with me, Ria, what would you want to do first?
First? Give you the cutest wake-up call, ever.

If you had only one more day to spend with me, what would you plan for us to do, AJ?
All I know is that on the end of the day, I'd kiss you on the cheek and then fall off a cliff because it'd suck to live without you. ):

Okay, so I'm on my death bed. What's going through your mind?
Confession? Check. Family and fwends? Check. Now all I have to do is find a way to sum up the love I have for you, and promise you that I will see your lovely face once again. Through the hearts of Jesus and Mary! <3

So like, you have to be Krish.
I don't like where this is going. I think I'd kill myself HAHAHAHAHaHA

Rhoad Dahl has entered the building. This ain't no motha fugging James and the Giant Peach shizzzz. This is straight up Hindu Kushhhhhhh.

Okay so like, you have to be Krish.
WTF NO.

If you had a choice between slapping Dante in the face and not being his friend anymore or going on top of a ferris wheel with Krish for 10 minutes, what would you do?
Definitely the one about Da.. JK. I'd go on top of a ferris wheel with Krish and spend the 10 minutes going saying, "I hate you Krisht0pher."

If Krish were a girl, who do you think he would be? Out of our group of friends, I mean.
Remember Latika? She was in our kindergarten class. Definitely her.

Truth or dare?
Truffff.

Okay.

Ask me something, foo'

If you had a choice to either take a bullet for me and dieing without going to Confession, or letting me take the bullet and I didn't go to confession, what would you choose?
I'd take the bullet and die for you because what you've been to me in my life, is far more worth watching you leave me. And I wouldnt want you to die, due to the fact that I cant imagine how I'd be able to cope or overcome the loss of someone so special as you.

Now, would you rather fall off a cliff, or experience a shipwreck? Both are near-death experiences, but you survive.
Falling off a cliff would be quick and easy. Hahahah. A shipwreck means I have to save some other people's lives on the way to the top of the ship, which is going to be really hard for me since i'm a freaking weakling and what not. Also, i hate swimming.

Would you rather give up your eyes for someone to see or miraculously give someone your tongue for someone to talk?
I'd give up my eyes because I believe that the love of my life will always be there to give me his perspective of life. And Ive always wanted to know how the man of my dreams sees the world around him. And though its no comparison whatsoever to the sense of seeing, I believe that one can see just about everything in their heart.

Would you rather lose your memory or lose your sense of touch?
Sense of touch. I want to remember everything. Having no feeling won't stop me from spending time with friends and gaining things to remember other people by.

What would you do if your child was gay?
STRAIGHTEN OUT THAT GOON.

What if your daughter got pregnant at the age of 13 due to your best friend raping her?
I wouldn't blame my daughter. Rather, I'd take the head of the rapist.

I dare you to hug Mr. King.
On my way out, I most definitely will. :D

What if your first daughter committed an abortion?
She's still my daughter. It's just that I'd be really. really. really. disappointed in her. I honestly don't know what I'd do.

Tell me your honest opinion about me in one sentence.
I know it may be hard to believe, but if there was one person on this world that I could honestly say, "I love everything about you," it would be you, Adrian James Michael Castro.

Lets say that your wife wants to file for a divorce, and she refuses to hear you out or commnuicate with you. What do you do?
I'd honestly go through with it if it means to honor my wife with whatever she wishes to do with me. Because I decided to share my life with her for my entire life for better or for worse.

You're lost in the middle of New Jersey, the #1 ranked city in crime rates. You have no means of communicating with anyone. What do you do?
Pray and cry. The end.

My name is Adrenaline. Whats your first thought of me?
I'd think you took steroids every morning.

What would your life be like if you didn't sign up for band in 6th grade?
I'd probably have some sort of shell still, since I was a new student. I would have never met you, Michelle, or Elaine which is almost unimaginable, since you three are my best friends. I'd be completely different.

What if I was Kim?
I'd dislike you more than Jor dislikes you. I'd only respect you if our ring dance was helllaaaaaaaaaaaaaa hype next year.

What would you do if our ring dance was at one of Krish's businesses?
I'd dip.
Yeah, me too.
I'd take you guys to the beach. :D

Jor, what if Krish was secretly the most beautiful girl in the world, hiding under this nasty facade?
I'd say, "So you wanted to shield your infinite beauty from society? Why? Are stupid or something?"

So jor. Isis Fuji?
Yeah.... Bits ain't shizzzz But seriously..... She cute yo!

Describe our lives in 5 years.
I'd be out in da clubs, yo. Fuhget you guys!
I'd be a cosmetologist, with my first priority patient .. Krish Patel.

So, out of the three of us .. who do you think will have the cutest family?! :D
JOR
KRISH....ALL HIS CHILDREN WOULD BE ADOPTED THOUGH.....OH AND HIS WIFE WOULD HAVE LEFT HIM. JK, LOLUMAD?

Out of the three of us.. who'd win in a fight?
Definitely Ria. Check me out, Adrenaline.
Definitely Ria. She has a black girl posse just waiting to take off their acrylic nails and scrap.

Out of the 3 of us.. who do you think will poop first today?
Sike, I already won.
Naw man. When?
Like 6
k you win. Mine was at like 6:30. HAHAHA

Out of the three of us.. who do you think has the worst smelling poop?
Adrian. I like to eat. :]
A lot.
Angela Eden does too.

Jor, I dare you to give Mr. King a bear hug. Right now. :D
Maaan you're gay. hahaah

Adrian, I dare you to rub Krish's chest.... For 11 seconds. Oh yeah, bare.
YUUUUUUUUUUM

AJ, I dare you to kiss Ogo's hand.

Ria, I dare you to slap Krish as HARD AS YOU CAN. Face.
YOU MUST DO IT AS HARD AS POSSIBLE...

AJ, I command you to throw out one of your pick-up lines at the girl in the orange sweatpants.
YOU CAN'T SPIT MUTINY. She's sitting next to Larry.........COCK BLOCK HIM! DO IT!

Jor, I dare you to bite AJ's cheek.

Ria, I dare you to rub the top of Mr. King's head HAHAHAHAHAHAhAAHAHAHAh for 2 seconds. dont' do it... kay do it

AJ, I dare you to rub noses with Krish.

AJ, I dare you to hug Mr. King from the back.

Jor, I dare you to walk out the door.

Dante, I dare you to......................Sleep with Tyreek. Literally...

Jor, I dare you to kiss Dante's forehead.

AJ i dare you to sit on tomo's lap

Ria, I want you to cradle Jornel like a baby. :3

Everyone other than me......... I dare y'all to walk out in a conga line screamin, "Big Booty Women" Upon dismissal...

Dante, I dare you to hold Krish's hand for 5 seconds.

Okay we're done haha

Let's play a game.

Adrian
Baseballs?
Crap no.
Daaaaaaaaaaaang it. I wanna know how to play. D:
Everyone knows how to play.
Forget this mess. Shewt.
Gay is Krish.
Hay is Krish.
I hate Krish.
Jor thinks Krish smells. x]
Krish hates Krish.
Limon, Sarah hates Krish.
Maaaaaaan. Forget Krish.
No man, I love Krish.
Op, who's gay?
Poop to your face, Krish.
Queer. Krish.
Ria dont like no Krish cookies.
Shut up, Krish.
Time for you to go dup yourself, Krish.
Ughhhhhhhhhh. What's that smell? Oh. It's just Krish.
VISHNUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.
WTF AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
X-ray to your face Krish!1!!!!!!11111
Yo man, I hate Krish.
Zantarawa is an Indian name starting with Z.

Love, Ria and Adrian. <3

A short story by Bff and I.

There once was a boy named Vishnu.
He was walking to the table with his best friend Latika.
Latika was the most beautiful girl he had ever seen.
Sike.
Okay, well, maybe from India at least.
Anyways, Vishnu was talking about how bad Latika's sunburn was.
Secretly, however, Vishnu would put cream on her sunburn anyday.
Oh crap. Jornel is getting suspicious.
Oh crap. Jornel isnt even supposed to be in this story.
Wtf. What is Jor doing in India?!
Wait, WE NEVER INTRODUCED HIM.
Oh. Hey Dante. I like your edge-up. :]
Dante, I think Vishnu might want some bromance up in this joint.
Anyways, Latika was about to get her black posse up in the hizzle my wizzle and make some shizzy go down in this joint.
AYO JOR. Watch it. Fool. Dont be playin me.
Yeah.
Huh?
Krish, if youre reading this, you're gay. :]
MAN. Krish wasnt supposed to be up in this swizzle.
No, Krish. Even Vishnu wouldnt want to be you.
If Vishnu and Krish got in a fight, I think Vishnu would poop all over Krish.
Put all mah monayz on Vishnu.
What's Krish got? A tight shirt and no self esteem?
Naw, but he got Latika on his contacts list.
Idk what this ever was about.
You messed up our story. D:
It was definitely Jornel. D:
Man. Foget you.
k.
thxbai.

Love, Adrian and Ria. <3

Fight for yourself, for once. Maybe you could show me a little sign that you still think that something can blossom from all of this nonsense we've had for the past four years. Do you know that I am so tired of you already? Do you know that I feel so pathetic for waiting after last night, waiting that you'd come around and give me your game plan? Do you know that I am so sick of seeing you with him? Do you know how much it triggers my anger that he had to tell you to talk to me? That he had to tell you what to tell me? How heartless. If he tells you what to say, where the crap do you fall into place? Do you know that I get hurt when you hurt him? Do you know how much Ive been trying to convince him that everything will be okay? Do you know that your lame excuse about "Boys are stupid." is far more childish than the love he has for you? Do you know how much it hurts to see the one you love walk away, pretending that nothing even happened? Do you know how it feels for him to see you with him, oblivious and pretending that it doesnt bother him? Do you know how much you've done? At all? Do you know that your presence is only irritating me at this moment? No. You dont. Because you cant hear me out, and I cant hear you ... well, at all. And thats the problem here. Youre only here when our life is full of rainbows and butterflies. So who's going to be there when all I have left are clouds of gray and empty promises? Not you. Not you, at all.

And heres another problem here.
I still love you. Nonetheless. And I'd fight for this so much. If only you knew how much I wanted this. And if only you knew how to reciprocate such a thing.