Seeing you happy makes me feel nice.
Sometimes Im just like.. Why, though?

Yesterday.

Before I was getting ready for bed.. I was ecstatic. I have never been so happy in such a long time. Trust me, you can even ask Tyler or Ate Rachel. Really, though .. I was one of the happiest people on this world. And inside my heart, I was jumping all over the place. The kind of happiness I had was the "Im so happy, I could go dancing in the cold winter's rain right now." My smile was geniune, and it felt so good to be able to thank God on so many levels.

But after yesterday, I have come to realize that my worst enemy is no one, but myself. I am the primary root of all this pain I bear. I am causing myself to hurt more than I already do. And its scary, because I dont want to hold any of this negativity .. but its myself that continuously throws more sorrow onto my vulnerable body.

And you know how they say, "Sometimes.. people just need their time alone." Right now is probably one of those times where I am too afraid to be alone. Right now, I shouldnt even try surrounding myself with emptiness, because it only brings me down. Because when Im alone, my own mind reminds me of the things I dont need to replay in my head. When Im alone, I think about what can go wrong, and how matters can get worse. When Im alone, my optimistic mindset begins to swallow itself.

Once I said my goodbyes and goodnights yesterday, and began to prepare myself for bed .. I slowly felt my heart sink. I gradually began to see the smile on my face disappear into the dust. The only things that kept me going last night were Evening Prayers. Evening Prayers always end my night in a blessed way. Without them, I would be uninspired to wake in the morning. Without them, I would be lacking of the feeling that I did something beautiful, not only for myself, not only for Christ, but for you all.. you all that Im praying for.

Really, I think all I need right now is your prayers. I'll pray for you as you continue to pray for me.

Love,
Ria.

"Aw, I thought you guys would last. You two looked nice together!"

And her saying that means something to me, because she hardly ever says things like that. And every time we talked about you, she would say.. "You guys are so cute!"

I think I'd like to hear what you have to say IRL.

Why?

Why would I look back at these if its only hurting me? Why would I look back at these if it only makes me miss you more? Well, thats because it gives me hope. And it reminds me of how blessed I was to have a beautiful soul like yours make me feel the way you did.

[03:00] Kirbs da shizzle: I missss you :[[[[[[[[[[[[

I havent been here in a long time.

1. Happy birthday, bff. :D Im glad you enjoyed your day today. And now you know how much of a great friend you are! Kekeke. I hope you understand that you deserve it all. And that I care about you so much! xP
2. Eraine, I had so much fun with you last night. Even though we didnt shower yet.. and we lost a lot of sleep. It was so worth it. I havent laughed that much in a long time! It was so fun laughing with you. [; We are so coool, man. Its pretty unbelievable. We're freakin geniuses. Hahaha. Now, we must promise to share our cute ideas to each other's boyfriends. HAHAH.
3. JC, I feel like I havent talked to you in such a long time. Nor have I seen you. Lets fix that.
4. Nyeeeeh. Do you still read this? Did you ever? HAHA. You make me wanna punch you in the face, a lot. :D But thats kaay. Thats the "love hate relationship" we have. Hahaha. I hope you like the next note I give you. I think its really funny. :P
5. AY NAKU. Anong gagawin ko sa'yo? Mahirap naman magmahal sa'yo, pero sinasabi ko lagi sa sarili ko na kayang kaya kung gawin. Please, parang hindi ko na kayang magtago sa'yo. Basta, wag ka lang mawala sa buhay ko. Gets mo ba? Oo, baka desperada na ako dito, pero sa totoo lamang.. mahal na mahal kita. Ikaw lang ang nasa isip ko sa araw at gabi. Bakit? Eh, hindi ko nga alam kung bakit. Yan, tapos na ako dito. Pero hindi pa tapos ang pagmamahal ko sa'yo. Habang buhay mamahalin kita. (Kung hindi tama yung sinasabi ko sa Tagalog, pasensiya na lang sa inyo.)
<3

I havent been here in a while.

Blogger is so sad now that everyone uses tumblr. D:
Except for like, Nghia, AJ, Eileen, and Sarah. Haha.
Happy December, everyone! :]
I hope I start this month off right.
I think Im going to start working out more.
Ive been slacking so much, ever since school started. xP
And I need to spend less time on the computer.
And do more productive things .. like,

1. Get ahead on my homework. 8D
2. Study.. haha.
3. Get better at guitar.
4. Get a lot better at guitar.
5. Keep my room clean for longer periods of time. x]
6. Set aside more time for prayer.
7. Spend more time with my family.
8. Read more books. :P And the Bible!
9. Work out a lot more.
10. Make more cute outfits to wear. ;D

Yeah, hopefully I can keep up with what I want to do.
Time to be productive, and to my math hw.
Ciao. <3

Thank you.

1. Thank God, Jesus, and Mary for always being here for me. Thank You for always being here for me, no matter what. Thank You for always getting my faith back up when its falling down. Thank you Mama Mary, for always interceding for me. And for being a beautiful mother. <3
2. Mommy and Daddy, there is basically no way I can thank you both enough. You both have always put up with me, have always looked out for me, and have always loved me. Thank you for raising me into the person I am, but also thank you for letting me grow and learn some things on my own. I will be here for you both, forever. I promise.
3. Spffl, thank you for staying in my life. Thank you for always loving me and always accepting me, even though I lose a lot of time with you because Im so busy. Thank you for always watching out for me, and always praying for me. Thank you for bringing me closer to God. Thank you for inspiring me. Thank you for everything. I love you.
4. Ate Rachel, thank you for being my little big sister. You really have changed my view on my entire situation. Thank you for being so cute, haha. And always making me smile. Thank you for welcoming me into your family and for always making me feel at home. Thank you for always giving me a reason to be happy. Im always, always praying for you. We can do this. :D
5. AJ, thank you for putting up with me. You have seen so many sides of me, yet you still manage to be the one to stay by my side. Thank you for always worrying about me, for always picking me up when Im down. Thank you for being here for me all the time. Through the hearts of Jesus and Mary, 5 years .. and still going strong. [;
6. Elaine, thank you for letting me tell you anything without having to worry. Thank you for being someone I can trust. Thank you for all the memories, and all of our pictures. I miss being your pen pal. Haha. Oh well, I still love you. Hehe.
7. Nghia, thank you for being sooo lulzy. Hahahaha. You make my days so much. You really do. xD Thank you for our love-hate relationship. Thank you for always keeping me entertained, and for writing me notes even though it felt kinda gay. Thank you for being in this friendship with me, even though I leave you out sometimes. Im sorry if I make you feel like I dont need you, because I do. Youre one of the reasons why I smile on a daily basis. And you have helped me so much through all of my stressed out moments. Thank you for being such a fun best friend. :P I know it was a joke before, but it feels real to me. Im always here for you, trust me. Okay?
8. Marlon, you drive me crazy sometimes. HAHAHA. But you are so fun to talk to. Im so glad we got closer. It feels like we've been friends since like, 5th grade. Hahaha. Its fun messing around with you, and "burning" each other. Even though its just an insult. Lolol. And when I see this face: x] it reminds me of you. And those historical moments make me want to cry. HAHAHA. But like I said before, Im so glad that I got to be your partner for Kims debut. And yeah, I do miss being your partner and all.. but thats how it goes. Btw, your smile is so gorgeous. It makes me jealous, usually.

<3

Dear AJ,

You little menance.
You little sneaky, sly boy.
Get outta here, boy.
Remember what they taught you in elementary school?
"HANDS TO YOSELF FOOL."

Love,
Ria.

Dear Ria,

I've never written to you, ever. Haha. I think Im going to do this more often though; it seems like it will help out a lot. I dont know.. we'll see.

But anyways, you should be happy. Really happy. You should take the time to look around you and realize how many beautiful people you have that care about you. Most especially your family. Stop taking advantage of them. Yes, that includes mommy and daddy. Remember? You want to be the girl they're proud to call their daughter. Make it happen. You seriously have put them through enough stress, I promise. And your friends? I really do feel like youre making a lot of new friendships, and developing new relationships. But thats fine! The more the merrier? Isnt that what they say? Well, yeah. Its true in some cases, but dont leave your old friends behind. They are waaaay too important. Always talk to them! And keep up with them. You know you love them; show it more often. :D Tell them that you miss them. Talk to them and share a healthy, cute laughter.

Girl, stop stressing out so much. You worry about so many little things, and big things as well. But you worry a lot. Just like Nghia said. Its just making you miss out on your childhood. Hold on to it, because I know once youre older .. youre going to look back and be like, "I could have lived a much brighter life." So have some fun! And be that optimistic person you say you are, or at least try to be. Yeah, there are going to be some conflicts, and there are going to be times when you get into a negative situation, but I know you can find a peachy keen way out of it. I know it.

Accept yourself for who you are. God created you, and you are beautiful in His eyes. Remember?! So dont be so hard on yourself. Look in that mirror, and accept who you have become. And yes. We can all change, at any given time and point. But love who you are! You must learn to love yourself in order to love someone else entirely. And you may not always feel beautiful; its human nature. But give yourself a little smile. And dress up every once in awhile. Enjoy who you are, and flaunt your flaws. Haha. Never forget: God believes that you are a beautiful child of His. And someone out there will tell you one day, "You are the most beautiful girl on this world." And you'll believe it.

Its okay. Everything is going to be okay. God has a plan for you, and one day .. it will all work out. And all the pieces will finally fit. Hes still here, right? And remember what he told you? "Dont beat yourself up about it."

Love,
Yourself.
<3

"Real men are allowed to cry because Jesus wept."
-Brother Ryan Castro.

This was so cute. Let it all out, fellas.

So,

I just realized that I cry easily. Much more than I used to. I dont know why. And today, was the first time I felt lonely in a long time. Like, I was serious about it. I felt so sad and lonely after reading those. But I was laughing, I guess it was a cover-up. I think Im getting better at covering up my feelings. Thats not a good thing, though. And sometimes, I feel like Im losing the people I always opened up. Sometimes, when I talk to them about you, I feel like Im just wasting their time. And that maybe theyre tired of hearing that kind of stuff. Why do these feelings always consume my happiness? I hate this. This sucks. I need You.

"“when the person you love tries to leave, hold on to them. it may hurt, but all they need is to realize how much you really do care.”"

Oh hay, dreamboys.

1. I wish Jesse Barrera was cute. Haha, seriously. I wish his physical appearance could match the level of his vocals. That would be hawt. Either way, Jesse Barrera's voice is gorgeous.
2. All this talk about Jay Legaspi finally persuaded me to check him out. I love his voice. And his song Friend Zone and When the Lights Burn Out. :D
3. Gabe Bondoc, I love everything about you. Dont change. <3 HAHAH.
4. So many people say that AJ Rafael is a cocky person. Im not sure if I believe that or not. But I can say that Gabe's voice is much more alluring. Then again, theyre both awesome musicians.
5. Omgggg, if anyone out there has a voice like Andrew Garcia, they are something special. I love every single cover Andrew Garcia has done in the past. Most especially his Gravity cover with Esna and Sunday Morning and Lost Without You cover with Angie. Owww owwwww. <3

Dear you,

It's hard for me to even think of living my life without you here. And I know that it hurts you to see that I still feel the same about you, even though you're already adjusting. But sometimes, I wish I could have made you understand how much I could offer, and how much I was willing to sacrifice. I'm doing fine, yes. I seem to be much better at coping than I ever was before. I know I shouldn't; but why do I feel like I should be forcing myself to get over you? Cause obviously, I don't want to. Then again, I should keep an open mind and heart. Tell me if there is a way how because my mind is overflowing with thoughts of you, and my heart continuously beats for you.

Please, pray for me.

Love,
Ria.

Dear Lord,

I've come to finally realize, with the help of Ate Rachel, what True Love really is.
You gave up Your everything, for us. You knew that it was going to be painful, yet You didnt back out.
Even if we decided to turn our backs on You, You would still be here for us.
And no matter how long it takes us to prepare ourselves, You'll be waiting patiently.
And even if we forget to talk to You on a daily basis, You're still willing to listen.
And although we constantly hurt You, Your love still remains undying.
So thats the kind of love I want. Thats the kind of love I want to experience.
No, not the ones in movies, not the ones in songs. Not anymore.
I want the love You have showed us. I want the love You share with us.
I want the love that I should have acknowledged a long, long time ago.
I love You, Lord. May Your Love be sufficient for me.

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And this is why I am still that hopeful, wishful romantic. Only more considerate.
That even if you provide me with inconveniences, I will still stand beside you.
If it means that I must wait for you, I can occupy myself with other matters.. but you'll be the one I'd like to see in the future.
And even if we dont talk everyday, or even every other day, whatever conversation I get to share with you will be worthwhile.
Dont worry if you feel that you have hurt me; my love for you still goes on.
No matter what; whether you are the one for me or not; I will love you.
Always and forever. Like I told you before. <3

In Gods name we pray.
Amen.

Love,
Ria.

Dear AJ,

Our time has come.
Im sorry for letting you down.
But, it looks like we dont have anymore room for each other.
And suprisingly, I dont care. Yeah thats right.
I said I dont care. For once I want to be oblivious.
Im going to pretend that nothing happened because I feel better that way.
Please go away. Let me be myself and dont look at me.
I guess I should thank you for everything.
Then again, its kay. Bye.

What?!

Who knew blogspot wasnt blocked at school?! >:]
Anyways, Im in first block right now.
Doing the usual: NOTHING. :D HAHAH.
Except tetrisfriends.com.
And tumblr.
And listening to my iPod.
And now this.
Thank you, Mr. Phelps.

Love, Ria.

PS: Guess what? I got a 100 average in this class.
OH HECK YES. [:

Dear Michael and Paola,

I love you guys. (:
Thank you so much for coming over yesterday.
Even though if it was supposed to be for Paola's project. :P
You guys really made my day yesterday.
And for some reason, when its just us three .. its so fun!
We always find something to do, or something to talk about.
Michael, I literally did laugh at everything you said.
You are so lame sometimes. But then its funny. Haha.
And see, that personality thing even got it right.
HAPPY NINE MONTHS TO YOU AND ATE. <333
So cutee naman. Hehehe.
Paola, you already know. Even though we were just in the room,
and I was doing my own thing and you were doing your project,
I enjoyed it. Hahah, it was quiet .. except for the music,
but I liked being with you. xD
The sushi we made was actually pretty goood.
And the dancing party we had for Keia.
Im sorry that Im so late on opening up to you two.
I guess it took me this long to realize how much I should keep you guys up to date.
And you both really do bring the best out of me.
Stop laughing, Michael. Im serious. Hahahaha.
But yeah, whenever we talk to each other .. it feels natural!
Even if its about something weird, or one of my secrets.
So from now on, I wont hide anything from the both of you.
I promise. Until our next time together. (: Oh wait, tonight.
Hahaha. Kay baaaaaaaaaaai.
Love, Ria. :D

Dear bff,

I still find the time to read your blog.
And you are not lame. xD
For me, blogging is really where I put down whatever is on my mind.
So start with that. Put anything down.
It can get pretty interesting, trust me.
Or if there is something you cant say outloud,
Or something you want to tell someone but dont have the courage yet,
Dont be afraid. Say it on here. Blurt it out .. on the keyboard. :P
I know you like to talk about things IRL,
But we're human. It gets frightening sometimes.
And this blog will always just be something to look back to.
To remind you of the past, to laugh at, or to inspire you in the future even.
So say what you need to say. It does get hard when youre clueless as to what you want to talk about it.
Or how you want to word it.
If so, then dont blog at that moment!
People dont write in their journals or diaries if they aint got nothing to say, fool.

Love,
Bff. (:

How I feel about you;

Yeah, I feel like copying Bomban on this one. I think now would be a good time to talk about everyone, or most people, that mean a lot to me.

So lets start off with you, BOMBAN:
-Every time I have a good moment with you, I think about the times when I thought you were nothing but a person who did crazy, weird things. Hahaha. I mean, I didnt think you were a bad person, at all. I just thought you were all for teh lulz. Haha. But Im glad to know you better now. And I enjoy seeing that "other side" of you. Really, you are one of the people who have helped me the most with all of the times I overthought me and Kirbys relationship. And Im grateful for you because of that. But not just that, Im thankful that you can listen to me rant about whatever. That I can joke around with you. That I can forget about all the strict rules of my life, and just... live. That we can talk about whats going on in our lives and help each other along the way. I know you dont believe me when I say this, but you and Kirby act so alike sometimes. In a good way, usually. And your new frames make you look so cute. Im not even kidding. Haha. And I really miss our fearsome foursome. Dont you? PS: I still think its so funny how you used to call me "daddy's little girl" over the summer. :P

PAOLA:
-Oh, yooooou. There is hardly ever a time that I dont like you. Haha. Lately, you have made me feel so, so, so good to have you around. And I love how we've known each other since you were like five. xD Or before that..? Haha. I like how you are easily amused. I like how youre simple and not too girly. I like how youre just, you. :] But I just want to say that Im sorry. Im sorry that I dont hang out with you as much during school. Please though, dont believe that Im just taking advantage of you.. or that Im getting tired of you. Because its not true. And Im pretty sure you will never think that, because youre just a really good friend and we dont have extreme restrictions or expectations like that. But yeah, the kind of friendship we share is different compared to everyone else. Remember, we're still going for that dream goal! If you know what I mean. ;D <3

ADRIAN:
-Bff. Forreal, that name fits you so well. There is nothing about you that I dont admire. Everything about you makes you seem .. so blessed. Youre truly a gift from God to me. I honestly dont know where I would be without you. And you have put up with me so much! I cant believe it. Four years and still going strong. :D Im sorry for ever letting you down. And Im sorry if I ever annoyed you, or if I was too blind to realize something about you. But I know for a fact that we will honestly be best friends forever. There is nothing that will tear us apart. Through the hearts of Jesus and Mary. [:

JC:
-I feel like we've been through a lot already. Not necessarily in a bad way, because now .. youre like my closest guy friend. Really, you are. And you know that already. Oh man, there is nothing wrong about you. Haha. Seriously, I dont like it when people talk about you because of what happened in the past. Because it doesnt really matter now. At least, to me it doesnt. Everything that we went through in the past lead to you becoming my best friend. And if someone is reading this and wonders why, its because I can relate to you on any level. Our connection is beyond explanation, isnt it? I mean .. yeah, there are times when I cant figure out how to help you, and Im sorry for that. And sometimes we dont talk as much like every other pair of best friends, but hey. I dont really mind, because I know that youre still there. And if someone ever tries to make you believe that you arent fit to be my best friend, theyre wrong. Thank you for everything. Dont change.

CAMILLE:
-You and me, Camille, you and me. Hahaha. Seriously, we have so many up and downs. And for all of the times I hurt you, for all the times that I gave you an attitude, and for all the times I made you feel like I didnt care about you, Im sorry. Please forgive me, bestfriend. You deserve so much better. You work so hard in life, and youre so jumpy when youre happy. I love it. Hahah. It gets kinda funny sometimes, but dear .. Im not laughing at you. Youre just cute. Hahaha. Thank you for putting up with me, forreal. I think you put up with me the most. Other than my mom, of course. Haha. And you give such great advice! Oh my goodness. I think I would be stuck in some hole if you never taught me everything you have. I think I would feel really hopeless if I never listened to what you had to say. Camille Ann Ducut Lapid, I love you, dont ever think otherwise. :D

NGHIA:
-Its really fun walking to class with you like every morning. It makes me smile; it makes me feel like the day is going to be a good one. And even though we both have been slacking a lot lately, passing notes with you is so fun! Its kinda cute, too. Haha. Sometimes I cant read what youre writing, but who cares. I always figure it out later. Hahaha. I told you this before, but I think its so much cooler when you say "Lulzy." It really fits your voice, Idk why. HAHA. But you are soooooo lulzy, Nghia. Thats one of the main reasons why I love hanging out with you. And Im not sure if it was just for "teh lulz" but youre pretty much one of my best friends too. xD I like having deep conversations with you, it really helps me and touches my heart. And riding in the car with you?! SO FUN. OMG. Its like riding a rollercoaster. I have never had so much fun in a car. Ever. And when we were listening to classical music? HAHA. And even though I forgot that it was illegal, driving your car in the parking lot was so exciting. Oh maaaaan. Hahaha. Ever since we became friends, you made just about every day go brighter, Nyeh. [:

ATE AMY:
-You make me smile, all the time. You really are like an older sister to me. In soooo many ways. Its all my fault that we dont see each other that often. D: And we havent been able to update each other lately. But seriously, Ate. Its soooo crazy. Everything that we have been talking about keeps connecting. So here I am, pretty much following the footsteps that you have been making. Haha. I feel like I could be a much better ading to you, Ate. I feel like we could be so much closer. Im sorry. But for now, Im grateful that God put you in my life. Please stay. [: Im always praying for you!

ANGELO:
-Im still trying to get used to the haircut. xP Lolololol. Thanks for letting me steal your game. It was really entertaining. You know what? When I was hanging out with you, Tim, and Audrey at Target the other day, I realized how much fun it is to be in your presence. Haha. Well, all three of you made my day. Honestly. Im glad that we've gotten closer since last year, and Im glad that we're able to have more serious conversations, and that we can confide in each other. Thank you for listening to all of my "problems." Or whatever they are. Because now that I think about it, I was probably just overexaggerating. Hahaha. Im praying for you, Angelo. I dont want too much of a barrier to get in between us, if you know what I mean.

MICHELLE:
-Mary Michelle Rose Estrada. :D I miss yoooou. I wish we saw each other more often. I wish we hung out more. I wish we talked more. I wish you could go to Landstown. :[ But its okay. Despite the distance, and the lack of time together, I know in my heart that we are still SPBFFLs. <3 Dearest, I love everything about you. You are the one of the best people to ever come into my life. Im so thankful that God brought you here to me. I hope nothing ever gets inbetween the two of us. PS: I hope you grow taller than me one of these days. Hahaha. :D

TYLER:
-Happy birthday, Mr. Capil. [: Since Michael, Queenie, and Kirby are probably still at your house, Im sure youre having a blast. I know we dont talk that much, and I actually want to change that. Because that one night that I got to talk to you was great. It just made me realize how much I could relate to you. Its crazy to see things connect between us, since we're just like .. friends because our friends are the same friends. Haha. But like I said, one day .. we'll be great friends. And it sucks because I hear about you having bad days, or days when youre just too tired. It makes me feel bad, really. Haha. But you seem to be a really cool kid. Stick around, okay?

MICHELLE:
-Angeline Michelle Cabarrubias Dumadag. I bet you a million dollars that I spelled that wrong. Shoooot. D: (I just changed it after I checked your tumblr.) Hahah. But I felt like trying to spell it cause it reminded me of your license. Haha. But you are such an amusing person. I always have a nice vibe around you. And youre easy to talk to; its never uncomfortable. You know so much, I can tell. I should come to you more often for advice. Haha. And christmas caroling practice is more fun because of you! I like the picture we took together. xD My chin is sexy....? Why thank you! Haha. "OH OKAY MY NAME IS RIA AND I HAVE A NICE CHIN BUT NO ONE TELLS ME. OH OKAY." Ahahaha. You is so funny. And when we were shoving our faces behind our binders to see if we both got the Alto One part down. Hahaha. I cant wait to spend more time with you.

JORNEL:
-Ah, you are so cute. I know you probably get tired of hearing that.. cause I say it so often. Hahah. But you'll be manly soon. I know it. Your voice is going to get really deep and soon, everyone will regret thinking you were 12. HAHA. But marketing class is soooooo great. And youre one of the main reasons. Especially when we work on our manual! Youre a freakin genius, Jor. I wish I was like you. Haha. Youre smart, youre attractive, you dress nicely, youre friendly, youre everything! Man. I just love joking around with you. And our webcam pictures are soooo gaaaawjusss. Oh mah gawsh. Haha. And having those serious talks with you and AJ mean so much to me. I will spend the rest of my life having you as a good friend. Deal? And thank you so much for listening to me rant all class last year in English. Haha.

MARLON:
-I dont think I have ever gotten upset with you. Haha. Or mad, or anything. You seem to be happy a lot. And thats a good thing! I strongly agree with you when you said that it feels like we've known each other forever. Ever since the first practice for Kims debut that we got paired up together, I have grown to be really comfortable around you. And its fun to mess around with you. Your facial expressions are so funnny. We already have so many memories that I wont ever forget. Like the time you ripped your gray pants. Dx Haha. And the time you and Ronnie sneaked into my house, and the time you went all the way to my house to use the bathroom. LOLOLOLOLOL. And all the times I had to help you find Katie during homecoming. And Jor's birthday lunch when you made the black waiter laugh when you said, "Those are the gay boy desserts." to Chris and Aldric. HAHAHAHA. Oh man. Btw, your smile is soooooo cute. Ah. xP

JULIE:
-Sometimes I look at you, and I think to myself .. "I want to be like her one day." You are so pretty, Julie. Its undeniable. But its not just your appearance, your personality is so strong and likeable. And that talk that I had with you really meant something to me. A lot, actually. I hope that we can have more conversations like those. Because on some days, I just never find the right person to talk about that kinda stuff with. But you were the perfect person for that. Really.

RONNIE:
-Kekekeke. You know why I put you right under Julie? ;D HAHA. But Im happy for you, Ronnie. And I still remember our first heart-to-heart talk. It was because you wanted to since Johnny opened up to me. xP But Im glad we did have that talk! Its nice to open up to new people, and you simply listening to me helped out a lot. Youre really funny, Ronnie. And I like your hair. :P Sometimes I forget that our parents have known each other for a long time. I remember when we were tokboxing and we showed our moms to each other. But they didnt recognize each other. HAHAHA. Homecoming was pretty fun, yeah? For some reason .. I think IHOP was more fun. Haha. My steak was delicious.. right? You hardly ate anything. But yeah, this is for you, Ronnie. :[ Im sorry that I failed to write about you in the first place. This probably wont mean as much, so yeah. Haha. PS: I hope that chocolate sundae syrup satisfied you for your hot chocolate. Haha. And sorry that I ditched you guys. In my own house. Hahaha. Ekekeke, you guys are so cute. x]

JOHNNY:
-Fourth block on B days would suck so much without you. Im not even kidding. Haha. I enjoy passing notes back and forth with you during class when we arent allowed to talk. Lolol. I've learned so much about you through those. And you've taught me a lot of things as well. I dont know where we are right now as friends, but I feel like we're getting closer. And it feels pretty nice. Haha. Im happy for you both, Johnny. Treat her well, okay? Or I'll kick you upside the head. HAHA. Jaykaaay. Oh yeah, like I said .. you looked nice in Isiahs clothes the other day. :P

SUNSHINE:
-I always think about the times when we used to be best friends. And I have to admit, I miss you a lot. But at least we still get to talk to each other, right? And I still feel comfortable when we have those heart-to-heart conversations. I just wanted to say sorry for all those arguments we got into before. Haha, and I hope that we never get into those kinds of arguments again. I think its kinda funny that every time I think about you, I think of one thing that you said. "You and Kirby are so cute." Ah. Sunshine, you have really impacted my life so much. You probably dont even know.

ELAINE:
-Thank you for accepting me. Thank you for putting up with me. Thank you for listening to me. Thank you for keeping in touch with me. Thank you for the jokes, the laughs, and the cute stories we shared. xD Thank you for the birthday gift that supposedly had a part two, but you never got me anything after that. HAHAHAHAHAHA. I CANT BELIEVE I JUST REMEMBERED THAT. HAHAHAHAHAHA. Lolololol. Anyways, Im sorry if I havent been myself for the past couple of days. I actually posted a tumbl about you, but then I posted it as private.. so now I cant find it myself. LOL. But basically, I just want to remind you that Im still here. And I guess everything I said that one day just wasnt what you wanted to hear. And Im sorry that I failed to tell you. I dont want to get back at you, Im not seeking revenge. But please, Elaine. I really really wish you would tell me something about your personal life here and there. Sometimes I never know how you feel, or what youre thinking about, or what you want. Not just sometimes, actually. About all the time. And I know, we do have really good times together. But then when I analyze it, I cant say that I know enough about you. Because I really dont. And its probably my fault. Maybe you just havent found the time to tell me anything like that. Or maybe I dont make you feel comfortable about those things. Or maybe you just .. cant. I mean, whether thats the situation here or not, I'll learn to accept life as it is. And I think I'll manage to not know these things. Instead, I'll just hope that I know enough to still be here as your best friend 82 years from now. Or longer. I still love you, and I always will.

KYLE:
I wish I could show you more often how much I care about you. And how much it means to me when youre simply there. And seeing you happy makes me happy, honestly. I said this before, but youre like a big brother to me. You seem to be down lately, so I hope you saw my post on tumblr. Stay strong. Youre an amazing guy; Im praying for you.

SARAH:
Its kinda sad to say this, but we arent really close compared to our other friends. But hay! Lately, I have been having so much fun around you. I like you, a lot Sarah. HAHA. You make me laugh so much, oh maaaan. Youre one of the reasons why my life has been so easy-going lately. I can always find something to laugh at with you. HAHA. And its so much better when we're the only two who understand why something is funny. I have missed you so much, girrl. I feel like we missed out on so many moments we could have shared. But its okay, we can fix that now, right? Haha. I dont think Ive ever told you this; but youre so cute. Youre pretty. And youre talented. Dont let anyone take you for granted, okay? And heck yes. Dante is beautiful. HAHA. And SNUZZLES. <3 LOLOLOL. And a couple days ago, Krish asked me about you when he texted me. And this is how we spelled your name: Shara Lamon. HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

KIRBY:
-I seem to always want to save you for last. We really have been through so much. And I will never, ever forget the way you made me feel. Nor will I ever try to forget. June 28 was really a turning point in my life. That was the day you told me that you liked me. But then you said sorry, haha. Dont ever say sorry for how you feel; its like saying sorry for being real. But anyways, I feel like you brought me into a new world. I lived a life with you that I only saw in my dreams. There is really something about you, Kirbs. Because I have never felt so important, ever. You made me feel like the most beautiful girl to ever walk into your life. You made me feel so happy. If other girls could experience the love that you gave me, their hearts would be overflowing with joy. And surprisingly, mine still is. Every time I think about you, and every time I hear your voice, hear your name, or see your smile, I get that fuzzy feeling. Haha. I used to wonder all the time where I went wrong. Every time that you didnt talk to me, I felt stupid. I felt like I was at fault. Dont worry, it wasnt your fault either. I was just overthinking too much. And Im sorry for ever making you feel like I expected too much out of you. Im sorry if I ever made you feel like you had to change for me. But dont change. Because you have such a beautiful soul, you dont even know it. I know you have flaws, but babe. We all do. And there is just something about you that makes me fall for you more and more each day, regardless of what you've done in the past, and regardless of all the compliments you fail to accept. Dont be so hard on yourself, and dont try to change who you are if someone makes you feel bad. Dont hurt yourself and dont be disappointed in who you have become. Look in the mirror, Kirby. I dont know what you see, I dont know how you feel about yourself but listen. When I look at you, I see the man of my dreams. And Im being totally honest. I see the kind of guy every girl deserves. The kind of guy who is simple, compassionate, and humble. The kind of guy who shows exactly how much they care about you. The kind of guy who makes those memories you will never want to forget. The kind of guy who makes those butterflies flutter in your stomach. The kind of guy who knows when to smile, and knows when to lend out a hand. The kind of guy everyone appreciates, but the kind of guy who doesnt become prideful. The kind of guy that loves, and seeks to be loved. The kind of guy that offers something that can last forever, not something temporary. The kind of guy who wants to be somebody. But Kirby, you already are somebody. And I know that Im not the only person who thinks that. Honey, you are a great person. One day, I hope you believe me. Because you have taught me so much. You have impacted my life in so many ways, that its almost impossible to count. You taught me how to live life the way I was supposed to. You showed me how it felt to just live in the moment. Because every moment I had with you, I wanted to replay over and over again. You really are the only person who has showed me what its like to be amazing in every single aspect. You really are the only man to understand me. You really are the only man to accept me in every way. You really are the only man to show me what its like to fall in love, and to be in love. You really are the only man that makes it impossible for me to deny how you make me feel. You really are the only man that has come by and made me feel like the their most cherishable gift of life. I remember how much you wanted to hold my hand, and how afraid I was at first. I remember how much you wanted to see me. And we finally got our chance together: those 7-8 minutes at Walmart in the junior girls section. HAHAHA. I was soooo nervous. You were too. It was so funny. I kept getting scared that my mom was going to find us. And that was the first day we held hands. I remember you took one of my hands and put it inbetween both of your hands. That moment was so magical. When I was just looking into your eyes, and they just lit up when you felt my skin. And boooooyyy, I have never texted someone so much in my life. HAHA. I wish I was smart enough to save every cute text you sent me. I could probably write a book. I remember when we used to call each other babe, baby, darling, and honey. LOLOL. You used them so well, oh my gosh. And that one morning we spent together a few days before I left for Canada. And it was my "early birthday gift." I remember you driving towards my driveway and I snuck out the back door and you got so ecstatic. I will never forget the look you had on your face once you saw me. Your smile got sooooo big, I felt too happy. Haha. And Luis, your leopard, was sitting in the front seat. I brought him upstairs into my room, and before I left him on my bed, I smelled him. HAHA. And he smelled so gooood. Just like you. Oh man. Then I ran downstairs and went into your car. It was so funny, because you were so scared that my brothers were going to wake up and kill you or something. Then you reached into the backseat of your car and said .. "since I cant be with you on your birthday, I got you these." And it was a bouquet of red roses. And you know that I could punch myself even until today for being too afraid to accept them. We were scared that mommy was going to yell at me if she found out where I got them. So we spent like 10 minutes thinking about who we could give them to. HAHAHAHA. Then once we started driving into this empty court in my neighborhood, you immediately grabbed my hand. AHHHH. I was literally jumping up and down inside my mind. Haha. And we spent about an hour together! We were just listening to music, enjoying each others company. And I remember when I first laid my head on your shoulder. Then I held your hand and I turned my face towards you to smell you again. Hahaha. Then I put my head back on your shoulder and started to play with your fingers. Then you lifted up your shoulders and kissed me on my forehead. Maaaan. I remember that like it was just yesterday. And I remember that I kept looking at your eyes, but you looked so sleepy! Haha. Im sorry that it was so early in the morning. I remember that while I was holding your hand, I would look out the window occasionally. It felt so natural to be with you. And every time a car would pass by, I would duck down and you would hide me. HAHA. Then when we had like, 10 more minutes together.. we walked outside of the car. And we hugged. A lot. It felt soooo nice because my head just rested along your chest, perfectly..almost. Haha. And I would look up at you and smile, and you would kiss my forehead again. Then after awhile, it was time for me to go. So you hugged me again and said bye. But then I was like, "Wait. One more." That was so perfect, oh my gosh. And when I got home, you texted me saying that you wanted to spend the rest of your life spending time with me like that. And we had so many precious moments together, that I could probably blog about all of them for the next three days and still not be done. Haha. But for now, since things have changed, all we can say is: thats what life is. The ups, the downs, and the turn arounds. And I know that we both wanted it to work out, and I know that we both wanted to officially be together one day and last a lifetime, but its okay. We prayed about it, and we agreed that if it wasnt Gods plan, then it wasnt. So thank you for everything, Kirby. And no, Kirby and Ria are not over yet. And I hope we never will be. Because even though we're just going to be friends, I can honestly say that Kirby gives me the most happiness nowadays. Every time Im with him, its like .. the world doesnt matter. We just have to be carefree. And yeah, I think we're both still working on transitioning and changing some things around, but thats fine. Im really really grateful that I had that talk with you, Kirby. It helped me get a lot of things off my chest. I wish you the best in everything that you do, and please. Dont ever let anyone tell you that you are not valuable. Because you are more than that. Dont ever let anyone bring you down, and dont ever believe that you ever let me down. Because you didnt. I cant even imagine you letting me down. Dont worry. Whatever happened, has happened. And we're just going to move forward, just like you said. Dont forget to always smile, and have fun. You look spectacular when you smile and laugh. I know we'll both be truly happy one day, because now I know that true happiness exists. Because of you, because of us, actually. You already know this, but Im praying for you a lot. I always am praying for you, and I always will. I will never forget you and what we had, and how it felt. And I will never regret the times we shared. You have taught me so much, and I just want to say that you have made me a much better person. I dont know what life would be like if you were never there. You made summer so much fun. You made every morning of my life something to look forward to. Maybe after awhile, I'll forget some of the words you said, and maybe I'll forget some of the things we talked about, but you will always be in my heart. I promise you that. And one more thing, I love everything about you, and Im sorry if its way too late or if its wrong to say this, but I love you Kirby Anthony Santos Manaloto. And I always will.

Yeah, yeah, yeah.

Ask me something, you guys.

http://www.formspring.com/forms/?737523-TQujkSy0wl

Remember when we told each other to pray for "us"?
I honestly do pray for us all of the time. Cause I still have hope.
But because of what is done, and how life turns out to be ..
I still pray for you as an individual. Every time I pray, I offer some of it for you.
I pray that you may find His Light. I pray that somehow things will work out.
I pray that someone beautiful will come along and open your eyes to realize the Truth.
And I just pray that you have faith in yourself, and I just pray that youre okay.
Sometimes I wonder if you do the same for me.
Sometimes I wonder if you ever think about me in your prayers.
Whether I am or not, always remember this:

"Pray, hope, and dont worry. :)"
- Adrian James Michael Castro. Bff.

Dream it.

I posted this on my tumblr and decided to post it here tooo.

It was two nights ago, and I still completely remember every little detail.

Anyways, it was getting late one night .. and I was in my house, actually me & Kirby’s house. I was in our daughter’s room and her name was Arielle. She was about 4-5 years old. Its funny because when Kirby and I were messing around one time, we named our children and our daughter’s name was going to be Arielle Roxanne, or something. Haha. So yeah.. Arielle and I were waiting for her daddy to come home from work. xD She was getting a little tired, so we set up a cute, pink tent and put it on top of her bed. To make it extra comfy, we put all these pillows and blankets inside. Arielle and I went inside and we just laid down for a while. I tickled her every now and then, and she had a cute little giggle. Just like Kirbys. Hahaha. I hugged my beautiful daughter while we laid there, and we waited .. and waited, and eventually, we both fell asleep. Then, Kirby finally comes home in his work uniform, it looked like the commissary work uniform. Hahaha. He slightly peeped through the opening of the tent, saw his two girls sleeping, and smiled. As he was looking down at us, I woke up and said, “Aw honey, youre home late. We were waiting for you.” And he told me that he wanted to go inside of the tent with us, but I told him he was too big. :P Hahaha. Soon enough, he convinced me and I told him to tuck Arielle into Sebastian’s bed. Sebastian was one of the names Kirby and I liked for our potential son. xD Lolololol. So Kirby comes back into the room and climbs into the small, little tent. And we both went into a peaceful sleep. The end. :] Hahaha.

Since no one really goes here anymore..

I guess I'll use it to my advantage? Nah, not really. Im not hiding myself from anybody.

I dont know exactly whats going on, but and I dont know whether its good or bad, but I like it.
I guess what I mean is, I dont necessarily understand how you feel.. but you seem happy.
Well, not all the time. But when you smile at me, I feel enlightened. Your smile makes my heart giggle.
Today was the first day I saw that side of you. A side of extreme disappointment and anger, almost.
And those words that came out of your mouth today were the first of its kind to ever reached my ears.
But I tried to comfort you. I dont know if my touch would be enough to calm you down a bit, but I tried.
And throughout third block, I would glance at you, just like I always do. And you looked so sad. I couldnt take it.
The expression on your face was full of resentment. And I stared at you for a moment, maybe about a minute or two.
Seeing you like that hurts me. And none of it is your fault, of course. Because feelings are uncontrollable. I know.
And as my eyes laid upon your face, I felt my body yearn for something. I felt like I should have done more.
Especially at that moment; probably one of the best chances to show how much I care. But it was impossible, I guess.
So as class continued, I started to see you smile and your eyes began to reflect the light in the way that they used to.
I finally heard your voice, in a more content tone. Once class was over, I waited for you outside the door.
And the walk to fourth block with you felt just like how we used to be. I missed it a lot.
I got the chance to feel the warmth of your skin once again. I stayed close by your side again.
Once the bell rang for dismissal of the school day, I was walking towards my classroom door.
And I saw you waiting outside for me, looking for my face in the crowd of students walking by.
Thats when I felt it. Thats when I felt the anxiety running through my body and my heart began to pump.
We walked side-by-side again. And I held onto your arm occasionally. Im sure people saw, but I dont mind.
I'd let the whole world see me next to you. I'd show them what its like to be a hopeful romantic like me.
As we made our way to the locker, I made sure that I was still on your left. I saw familiar faces passing by.
But you were all that mattered, really. It was time for us to end the school day, finally.
While I was expecting the usual wave from you, you stretched out both of your arms really wide.
And your eyes were brightly staring down at me. I placed my arms around your manly figure.
My head perfectly fit along your chest, just like we remembered.
And that was exactly what Ive been dreaming of all this time.
Kirby Anthony Santos Manaloto, Thank you. <3

It hurts.

It hurts to see several people come to me and question why you seem down lately, but then Im as clueless as they are. It hurts to hear some people say, "Maybe its not worth it." It hurts to sometimes think about moving on, but not knowing where to start. It hurts to try to let go of you at least a little bit, but always find myself with the desire to be in your arms.

Tumblr.

1. So many people are using it now. Oh well.
2. I enjoyed third block. I hope I did good on the test.
3. I can't help but stare at you; you're so .. everything.
4. Walking with you to fourth block was so much fun.

If only,

-If only you could see the expressions on their faces.
-If only you could see how bright their smiles were.
-If only you could sing your heart out with all of the other youth.
-If only you could sing and dance along to the voices God blessed us with.
-If only you could praise and worship with us and the angels.
-If only you could feel the unity.
-If only you could feel the strength.
-If only you could feel the hope.
-If only you could feel the faith.
-If only you could feel the love.
-If only you could be there with us, physically or spiritually.
-If only you could nourish your soul.
-If only you could kneel down in reverence.
-If only you could kneel before the Body, Blood, Soul, and Divinity.
-If only you could ask for intercessions.
-If only you could see the many faces of those that pray for you.
-If only you could see how many of them offer their prayers that one day, you will too.
-If only you could give me, give us, give Him, one more chance. <3

Feast Day of St. Luke.

Why hello there, St. Luke. :D Thank you for being such a great instrument of God. Thank you for being such a strong and faithful follower. Thank you for being a role model to us as to how we should praise God throughout our lives. Thank you for being an evangelist. Thank you for writing your book in the Gospel. Thank you for also writing the Acts of the Apostles. May we always refer to your writings in Scripture and always acknowledge you as our patron saint. In Jesus' name we pray, Amen.

Rainy day.

1. So today I was at Fresh World, two of the Spanish/Mexican workers raised their eyebrows at me and smiled. So grosssss. I wanted to cry. Hahaha. And they were like, mid-thirties. EW.
2. I didnt get to go to the FACADE meeting. Kuya Rayneil went to the doctor today, and hes positive for the flu. D:
3. Im gradually getting closer and closer to Danrae. Its nice and all, but for some reason, I feel funny when he smiles at me, which is like .. almost every time I look at him or whatever. Haha. Oh well, hes a good friend of mine I should have kept up with ever since he moved to Japan.
4. I was coughing so much today. Especially in spanish. People kept looking at me. Haha. When I was coughing really hard, the guy sitting next to me showed me a paper. And it was the information packet for the swine flu shot. LOLOLOL.
5. I stayed afterschool every single day this week. It was really fun. Helping Adrian, Isiah, and Sunshine make posters/banners made all of my days better. Today was lulzy. Michael and Nghia kept pointing at me and laughing so hard. Hahaha. And I stole Nghias two grapes. And I climbed up a ladder for the first time.
6. Tori Van Foster, SHOOT. Telling us that you called that spot already so we couldnt put a banner up there. GAY. You didnt even use it. Haha. Sunshine, ftw. xP
7. "I like that poster! It looks really nice."
"You mean the one that my girlfriend made?"
8. Johnnys facial expression when she walked past us was sooooo cute. Oh, Johnny. Haha.
9. Man. I need to clean my rooooom. Its a mess. D:
10. Its getting really chilly outside nowadays. I kinda like it, not really. Haha. Its whatever, I missed wearing winter clothes anyways. :]
11. I learn a lot from reading everyones blogs/tumblrs. It shows sides of them I never thought of before. It allows me to see them in a different way.
12. I have my outfit for picture day. Haaaaay. <3
13. Homecoming Week next weeek! Im so stoked. It would be so sweet if somehow the sophomores won the hallway decorations. xD
14. Speaking of homecoming, people keep telling me to go. But naaah, I dont really feel like it. And I dont have a date? But who cares about dates. Its just homecoming. Haha. Most likely, I wont be going.
15. My work is done here. Time to change into some comfy clothes and do something unproductive... or clean my room.
16. Goooodnight world. Wouldnt it be beautiful to sleep with a smile on your face?
17. <3

Another busy day.

Today was a lot better than yesterday. Forrreaaal. Probably cause my mind was everywhere but there. And probably cause I kept myself busy.



1. I had to dress up for DECA again. Those induction ceremonies got so boring, yo. Hahaha. Oh well, I know Im gonna have a lot of fun with DECA this year. And being an officer is even better. :]

2. The Crucible that we're reading in english is sooooo borrrrrang.

3. The first thing JC said to me was, "Ew." D: Haha. Its all goood, I got him back.

4. Nghia liked the red shirt I wore today. And when I changed afterschool, we maaatched. Haaaay.

5. Its fun helping make posters. ADRIAN, SUNSHINE, AND ISIAH FOR HOMECOMINGGGG.

6. Whoa, Im starting to have a lot of fun in math. SHOOOT. I just said that. Hahah. I hope I did good on the quiz.

7. Who wants to buy a cheesecake or pie from meeee?!

8. I hope me, Adrian, and Jor dont fall behind on this manual for VA DECA SLC.

9. I hope I can go to the Facade meeting tomorrow.

10. My throat hurts. D:

11. I havent done my homework yet.

12. Oppp, I was supposed to post this yesterday.

Maaaan.

Just after posting my last blog, I found this. Wow.

Of course.

Yeah, it does surprise me. You know why? Probably because I filled myself, I filled my heart with endless possibilities with you. I filled myself with what was almost perfection in my eyes. And now that those possibilities ended almost 2 weeks ago, Im half empty. So it looks like youre starting to experience what it feels like to be me. But, the last thing I want you to feel is that I dont care. I remember in a song, "Sometimes you gotta act like you dont care; thats the only way the boys learn." Well, no. Cause I care about you, a lot. More than you know, probably. Or at least, more than you'd accept. And my feelings havent changed a bit. I promise you that. Im just, trying to hide them behind a curtain. But the thing is, why would I do that? Im not going to be someone Im not. I cant act like this forever. Dont hesitate. There could be countless reasons why you feel this way; maybe Im one of the reasons. Or maybe Im just holding on, when I shouldnt. But why shouldnt I? Yeah, this is hard. It is. Idk anymore. This is confusing. D:

Yes, it is.

Either we do something about it, or we sit here and ponder, "Well, what can we do?"
It was nice talking to Sunshine about everything. I havent done that in a while. Thanks for listening to me, girrl. And thanks for the compliment, even though it kinda hurt me.

Oh, oh, oh.

So while I was browsing tumblr, I found this website: http://www.iamblessed.tumblr.com/.

There are a lot of cute pictures and quotes on there.

And a lot of them happened to catch my eye and relate to me, even.

So yeah. Sorry, just wasted your time.

Bye.

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up,

like… If a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending.

Every movie we see, every story we’re told, implores us to wait for it… the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we’re so focused on finding our happy ending we don’t learn how to read the signs. Like how to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don’t, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave.

Maybe a happy ending doesn’t include a guy, maybe… it’s you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is just… moving on.

Or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never once gave up on Hope.

— He’s Just Not That Into You

Wow.

Oh my. This is just beautiful. <3

Stay.

Stay optimistic; it'll get you out of this hole I got you stuck in.

Broken for you.

If you could, would you hookup with the last person you texted?
No, haha.

What was the reason behind the last time you cried really hard?
I told my mom everything.

What were you doing at 2AM last night?
Sleeping.

What could you eat any day of the week & never get tired of?
Rice, duh.

Do you have any plans for the weekend?
Its near the end of the weekend; I just have homework to do.
Next weekend? Uhhh. Facade and St. Lukes Fiesta!

How many people have you had strong feelings for in the year of 2009?
One.

Would you kiss anyone you have texts from in your phone?
Ideekayz.

What are you supposed to be doing right now?
Homework.

Do you find smoking attractive?
Gross.

When was the last time something bothered you?
Earlier.

Anything you're looking forward to?
Mommys birthday. APICS. Halloween.

Is there any chance you will kiss the person you have feelings for?
Probably not.

Did your last kiss take place on a bed?
Nah.

Do you know anyone who is pregnant right now?
Yeah.

Do you remember who you liked on New Year's?
No one. [:

Who's in your house right now?
Everyone in my family.

Have you ever ridden a horse?
Yes.

Are you secretly in love with someone?
No.

Do you own skinny jeans?
Of courseee.

Were you happy when you woke up today?
I've had better mornings. Like, over the summer.

Congratulations! You just had a baby boy! What's his name?
Jayden!

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
My dad.

What are you listening to?
Mythbusters on tv.

What's a fact about the last person that texted you?
Nyeh likes pho.

Is there someone in your life you wish you never met?
I dont think so.

Are you missing someone right now?
Yeah. :/

Are you good at hiding your feelings?
Nope.

What side of a heart do you draw first?
Left.

How many hours of sleep do you need to function?
Not many. I'll probably look out of it though. Haha.

Do you know anyone named Joshua?
Yes.

Is your hair curly or straight?
Straight.

What jewelry are you currently wearing?
Gold leaf dangling earrings. Rosary ring. Hair tie. Bracelet from Rome, I think. And saints bracelet.

Have you ever gotten a teddy bear from a boyfriend/girlfriend?
Ive never had a boyfriend.

Would you rather go to Greece or Hawaii?
Hawaii.

What if you married the last person you kissed?
Shes a girl.

How many people have you kissed, that you can honestly say you loved?
Just family.

What color shirt are you wearing?
Im wearing a red dress with a white cami under and a black cardigan.

Will you be in a relationship in the next month?
Definitely not.

Who's taking you to school tomorrow?
The bus. -_-

Do you want any children?
Yes; but only if its Gods Will for me.

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
I wish.

Do you think someone is falling in love with you?
Maybe he just, cant.

How's your heart lately?
Its experienced much better days.

Have you ever felt like you needed someone?
Yes.

Do you still talk to the last person you fell hardest for?
Not as much as before. :/

Are you happy?
Not really.

Do you believe teenagers can be in love and stay in love?
Yeah, but it seems less likely nowadays.

What's the first thing that pops into your head when you think of last summer?
The morning I snuck out to be with Kirby.

Did you sleep alone last night?
Yeah.

Are any of your friends taller than you?
Yeeees.

Who was the last person besides family that you said "I love you" to and meant it?
Auntie Tes. :D

Spell your name without an L:
Ria.

Day been rough?
Its had its up and downs.

Could you go the rest of your life without smoking weed?
Yes. Weed ruins your life.

Do you believe that if you want something bad enough you'll get it?
You still have to work for it.

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
Probably. D:

Where do you wish you were right now?
Somewhere that took my mind off of everything.

Did you wake up in the middle of the night last night?
No.

Is there a person of the opposite gender on your mind?
Yeah, always.

Do you miss the way things used to be?
I miss it a lot.

Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh?
It'd be kinda boring ..

Are you a patient person?
Sometimes.

Do you believe in true love?
Yeah.

Do you have a lot to learn?
I learn everyday.

Is it easy for you to talk to people of the opposite sex?
Not really. Sometimes, I guess.

Did the last person you kiss name start with a B?
Nope.

Do you own any Hollister?
I think, like one shirt.

What really irritates you?
People who point out the obvious.
Idk why, but its so annoying. Haha.

Who was the last person you talked to in person today?
Kuya.

When you're sick or sad, do you want to be alone or do you want someone?
I want someone.

Do you believe you go "somewhere" after death?
I live my life in hopes of going to Heaven after death.

Have you taken a shower in the last 24 hours?
Right before Church.

Ever licked someone's cheek or forehead?
Naaah. Haha.

Are you taller than 5 foot 7 inches?
No, and I hope I never say yes to this question.

Are you one of those people who just don't care?
No. I care too much sometimes.

Have you jumped in a pool with all your clothes on?
Nope.

Do you have a bad temper?
Sometimes. :/

Will you be dating someone in six months?
Only God knows.

Is there a night you would like to put on repeat and live it forever?
ADORE 2007; when I had my real conversion.

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
Idk.

Where was the last place you fell asleep other than your own bed?
The car.

You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life, what is it?
Water.

Do you think you are a good person?
I'd like to think so.

But didnt you say,

"You should give your heart 100% to that guy, and not give 98% because that 'other' still has 2% of your heart."

Happy Birthday, Marlon Agno. :D

1. Like I said, I like your flannel and your hair. I hope you get your chocolate that I gave to Nesly. Haha. And too bad. We were about to go to your party, but then mommy changed her mind. Man. I was excited. Maybe next year. xD Hahaha. Have fun, Marlon. :]
2. Oh, Johnny Somera. Haha. At the beginning of fourth block, we were like, "UGH. This class is going to be sooo boring." And it was. But then we started talking about personal stuff and shoooot. It felt cool. Its nice opening up to each other. And we were so happy afterschool. Hahaha. Youre a cool kid. What a great day today, huh? ;D
3. Nghia, youre slacking. You didnt write me back. :[ Fml. Hahaha, just kidding.
4. My nose is itchy.
5. I like having talk sessions with Camille where we update each other and talk about anything. Just like right now. xP
6. Point proven: Boys are ridiculously confusing. Hahah.
7. Im proud of you Sunshine, Isiah, and AJ. :]
8. Ideeekay what else. Byeeeee. :D

Ive been in a blogging mood all day.

Haha, I should be doing my APHG homework, but its kaay. Its not even due tomorrow. So I'll do this survey. Im bored. :]

Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with?
Whoever God has planned for me.
Family, friends, loved ones.

What's the hardest thing you've gone through in the past year?
-

Have you held hands with anyone in the past 3 days?
At Kims debut practice; I practiced with Daniel and Marlon. xP

What would you do if a crazy bitch ran at you with a knife?
Oh my gosh. I would run while screaming and running. Haha.

Do you remember who you had a crush on in seventh grade?
Arvin-John Manalo Tiongco. xD

Who was the last person you told a personal story to?
Uh, Bomban.

Who's the first person you argued with today?
Nghia Le. :D Every morning. HAHA.

According to your ex, are you pretty?
What ex.

How have you felt today?
Better than I have lately.

Do you like being in pictures?
Yeeees. Pictures are fun.

Who last called you baby?
Mr. Phelps called me babe last block.
He does that to like every girl every class.
So that doesnt count. Haha.

What’s on your mind?
You. ;D

Have you ever been in a hospital?
Yeah.

What’s the last thing you "aw"ed at?
Nghia waking up all hot and sweaty because his dad turned off his fan while he was napping. D: Hahaha.

Have you hugged anyone in the last 72 hours?
Yeaaaah.

How much money did you spend today?
None.

Did you have a dream last night?
Nope. But two nights before that, I had a dream about Ronnie. HAHAHAHA.
Ronnie and I were just looking at each other face-to-face and then it got really windy and Ronnies hair was flying everywhere. Then I woke up. HAHAHA.

Whats your favorite movie?
Of all-time, Mulaaaan. :]

You receive $60 without any reason, what do you spend it on?
I would get Marlon something since its his birthday tomorrow.
And I would save the rest for later use.

Ever felt like you’re not good enough?
Yeah.

Is there someone who lets you down?
Hes the same person who brings me back up.

Where did you get the pants you are wearing from?
Papaya or something like that.

Is it cute when a guy calls you baby?
Sure.

If you could be anywhere right now where would you be?
Canada. Or just having a lot of fun with everyone not worrying about anything.
Maybe like, Heaven. I think it would be beautiful to meet my sister.

Do you know any Spanish?
Yuppp.

Have you ever highlighted your hair?
I was going to in the Philippines. But then my mommy changed her mind.

Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
Maaaybe.

What is wrong with you right now?
Im procrastinating.

What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider?
I dont like either one. D:

Are you one of those people who obsesses over Hollister?
Nope.

Does the thought of marriage scare you?
Haha, naaaah.

Were you single on your last birthday?
Yeees.

Are you happy with life at the moment?
Suuuure. Its pretty good.

Go forward or back a week?
Forward.

Do you trust anyone right now?
Of course.

Is there anyone you're really disappointed in?
Nah.

Are you afraid of change?
I am actually.

Do you have any siblings?
3.

Do you know what you want to do with your life?
I want to be happy. And I want to do Gods Will.

Have you eaten any chocolate today?
Nope.

How has your week been?
Up and doooown.

Who was the last person who called you?
Kuya.

Ever kissed anyone in your top?
I dont think so.

How long does it take you to fall asleep at night?
10 minutes or less.

How many people have you had strong feelings for in the year of 2009?
REALLY strong feelings? One.

Do you prefer to take your showers at night or in the morning?
Night.

Would you hug the last person that you hugged again (besides family)?
Sure. I dont remember who it was though. Haha.

What are the color of your eyes?
Brownish? They look purple when I wear makeup sometimes.

Where did you get your last bruise from?
I havent had a bruise in a while.

Did you go to sleep smiling last night?
Not that I remember.

Let's say you walk past your ex on the street. What do you say?
Hello, ex. We've never met before. When did we get together and why did we break up? Hahahah.

Is anyone on your bad side?
Nope.

Is it okay to kiss people when you're single?
Uh, Idk.

Does anyone ever spell your name wrong?
Yeah. Rhea, Rhia, Rea, etc.

Tell me about the shirt you're wearing?
APICS. :D

Do you look at older pictures and laugh?
Laugh/smile. :]

Do you take any sleeping pills?
Nope.

Are you smiling right now? Why or why not?
Well, now I am. Haha. Just cause this question came up.

Ever seen someone just roll out of bed and still look hot?
Not hot.. Haha. I dont call people hot. Unless Im joking.

Tell me what you're wearing?
Jeans, 2004-2005 APICS shirt, and a gray hoodie.

Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?
Nope.

Does someone like you?
Maaaybe.

Do you smile everyday?
Yeah!

Have you ever intentionally made someone jealous?
Probably a long time ago.

Has someone made you feel like shit recently for something they did?
Like, has someone blamed something on me that was their fault? Nope.

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
I hold it back for a certain amount of time. Then I give up.

The last person you texted, was it a he or a she?
He.

Purple or green grapes?
Purple.

Name something you would NOT tolerate in a relationship?
Drugs.

Will your next kiss be a mistake?
I hope not.

Do you get scared during scary movies?
Of course.

Are you in a bad mood?
Nope.

If you had to choose between money and love what would you choose?
Loveeeeee. <3

Do you have a friend that is a complete and total flirt around everyone?
Basically, I guess.

Are you okay with the life you have?
For now, yeah. It can get a whole lot better.

When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
Time to fix my hair.

Do you enjoy late night phone conversations?
Suuuure.

Do you have any 'naughty' photos on your phone?
No.

Have you drank alcohol in the past week?
Nah.

Do you like to take walks?
Yeeees.

Oh.

What a dream come true that would be.

Proven point.

So many people like you. So many people think youre such a cool kid. So many people want to be like, "Yeah, this is my friend. So awesome, right?" I want to come up to you and be like, "I told you so." :D

A lot better.

1. Im glad we talked last night.
2. I still want that group hug, Elaine. ;D
3. Thank you, JC. They were delicious.
4. I should be doing homework. I have a lot. And I have dance practice at 530. Shooot.
5. Im just now starting to realize how busy I am. I looked at my calendar on my phone and I have so many activities this whole month. Homecoming nominations are called tomorrow, DECA week and inductions are next week, Me-Jor-and-Adrian need to start getting serious about our manual, APICS, FACADE, PYC, MHCC, SLY, Key Club, keeping up with my 8 classes, Chorus Concert coming up, Marlons birthday tomorrow, Dantes birthday tomorrow too, Auntie Kits' birthday on Saturday, the Fiesta of the Nuestra Senora Del Pilar on Saturday, singing with the youth at Sundays mass, confirmation class after that, do my resume, cover letter, and career report for marketing, AP human cornell notes, etc. Oh maaah gaaawsh.
6. Speaking of oh mah gawsh, this geeky white guy in my health class passed me a note asking me if I wanted to go to homecoming with him. LOLOLOL. I was so scared for some reason. When I read it, I closed it .. kept writing Nghias note, and when the bell rang I walked swiftly out the door to Kirbys locker. Hahahah.
7. I have a 94 in Chemistry. :DDDDDD
8. Somehow, someday, its all going to work out. And its just going to happen. I feel it.
9. I kissed Ate Amy on the forehead yesterday. It was so cute. Hahaha. Shes like, the older sister Ive always wanted. But God made her my cousin-in-law. :P
10. Man, I need to do my homework.
11. Love, Ria. <3

Uh ..

Never mind. I just deleted the post I made.
Who cares. Cause you dont.
Or at least, it doesnt show.
Pleaaaase. If you think this is normal ..
then where have you been since that day?
Dang.

My mind is overflowing with uselessness.

1. I need to clear my throat and voice out a few things to you.
2. Its saddening that you can just question that, without much background.
3. If I could, I would step up to the plate and tell you straight up what I believe in and whats inside of my heart. Intercede for me, Mama Mary.
4. Speaking of Mama Mary, it hurts when people ask, "Why do you worship Mary?"
5. But the thing is, we dont worship Mary. We love her. We honor her. Just like every other mother, Mama Mary is deservant of our love. To be conceived without sin, to be a virgin, to give birth to our God, Jesus Christ. What more must she do to earn your affection? What more must she go through? She sacrificed her only son for us sinners. She watched Jesus Christ be tortured, be neglected. For what? For us. Us, human beings who continuously fall into sin. Human beings full of flaws and imperfection. She watched her own Son be crucified on the Cross. She watched her Son shed blood. She is the first natural tabernacle of our Savior. We dont pray to Mama Mary. We ask for her intercession. We ask for her assistance. We ask her to intercede for us. We pray to Jesus Christ through Mama Mary. Mama Mary; with an Immaculate Heart, she accepted Gods Will to give birth to our Lord Jesus Christ. She is the Queen of Heaven and Earth. Is she not worth a slight portion within your heart? You love your mother. Jesus loved His mother. We claim to be followers of Jesus Christ. We claim that we have a desire to follow Gods Will. Jesus Christ, our God, loved His mother. Why cant we do the same?
6. Ate Amy told me: "If he doesnt know what to say, then you know youre hitting him at his heart."
7. I saw you, but I kept walking. Pretending like my eyes, my mind, my heart werent focused on you. And you know what I told myself? You know what I tell myself every freaking time this happens? "He'll talk to you if he really wants to." Stop proving my heart wrong. It hurts.
8. God created me for a reason. God created me to give all of my love away to someone. God created me to follow His Will. God created me with original sin, but He granted me the choice to become His Servant; even if the world turned away from him. God created me for someone. If that someone isnt of this world, God created me just for Him.
9. Ive been praying for you every single day. And almost every single time I pray.
10. I hope you guys had a nice day today.

"And all things, whatever you ask in prayer, believing, you will recieve." Matthew 21:22

Through Jesus and Mary,

Friends forever. :D

Youre still beautiful to me.

1. Today was the first day I made my own sushi. Then mommy and I experimented, and I made tempura rolls. :D So good. Haha.
2. Today was the first day we were quiet when we were walking to fourth block. Today was not the day for us.
3. Adrian128 xD - 4:57pm
Man.
I ruined it.
riagracee - 4:58pm
Its whatever.
Dont worry about it, silly.
Something this small cant ruin us!
Adrian128 xD - 4:59pm
Because you're like the spoon to my kool-aid that I stole from Nolan!
HAHAHAHAHA.
4. My stomach hurts. I ate way too much. D:
5. Lately, all Ive been wanting to do is sing my heart out. All daaaay longg. Or make a cover with someone. Or just have a jamming session.
6. I know it may not make sense, or maybe you just dont want to, but I think life would be better for the both of us if you werent trapping all of your feelings and thoughts inside of yourself.
7. Your smile is sooooo pretty. Man. Hahaha.
8. Another thing to add to my schedule: Chemistry quiz tomorrow. :[ APICS 2ND GENERAL MEETING ON THURSDAY IN THE SCHOLA. Owwww Owwwww. Im stoked. :D
9. Im sleeepy already.
10. Its been like, 3 hours since I started blogging this post. Hahha.
11. And its been like, long enough since we've had a conversation that really mattered.
12. ... Oh well. Time to go study and tokbox my life away.
13. Speaking of tokbox, this made me giggle for a few seconds.

14. Kay, goodbye.

"Kapag naging tayo, ituturing kita na parang package.

Cause I'll handle you with care."

<3 :D

Yesterday was better.

1.Yesterday made me feel a lot better, I think. I just kept myself busy the whole time, so it was good.
2. I wish I was good enough on the guitar to play Beauty in the Breakdown by The Scene Aesthetic. Or if someone would just sing it to me.
3. I have a AP Human Geography and Math Analysis Test tomorrow. Im going to cry. D:
4. We went to the mall yesterday and I got four new v-necks and a Hello Kitty cellphone charm. :]
5. St. Lukes flea market yesterday! :D I got, three dresses, a white vest, a beige high-waisted skirt, gray sweater. Hoooray.
6. Now I can see the improvements from the stuff Im learning in chorus. Haha. & Im proud of AMP43; we seem to be doing very well with our music. And even better, "Singing is praying twice." --St. Augustine. <3
7. Maaan, I still need to make APHG flashcards.
8. Schedule for this week: Pokemon Club. xD Or Sophomore Class afterschool on Tuesday. Singing at the novena at SanLo. DECA Officers Meeting afterschool on Wednesday. Kims debut practice? Singng again at the novena, either Wednesday or Thursday. WORKING MY BUTT OFF TO RAISE MY GRADES. D:
9. Haaaay, I have my outfit for tomorrow, I think. Haha.
10. I hope you have a beautiful day today. <3

Always.

"And I'll wait til forever is through
Whether or not you love me
I'll be loving you
I'll wait til forever is through
Whether or not you love me
I'll be loving you
I'll be loving you.."

1.Today your smile gave me a pinch of fear.
2.Now that I look back, maybe I never knew how you felt.
3. I like that out of all the people in this world, youre the one gives me hope.
4. Hm, I really need to talk to you and update you. I miss you.
5. Its so crazy, you and I still seem to be connected through both of our lives.
6. Thank you for listening to me today.
7. I dont want to tell you about this stuff yet.
8. I cant imagine that; its just not right.
9. Looks like there really is only one man on this world that won't break me apart, ever: God. <3
10. "Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of age." Amen. Matthew 28:19-20.

Oh wow.

Either you need to tell me what's going on, or you need to lighten up. Or maybe both. Im living my life feeling like its my purpose to keep you happy and satisfy your every need. And I feel like I make it happen. But then you crash and burn inside every single time. Every time, negativity pours out of you. Youre supposed to be optimistic, remember? Stop smiling at me if the things I do mean nothing. And sometimes they do make you feel better, but thats just temporary. Fml.

Finally.

1. We finally have internet and tv again in our houseee. :D Thank you, Cox Cable guy. Haha.
2. So the past few days have been kinda empty, because of the lack of technology. But at the same time, I felt productive since I actually did my homework early and had free time at night.
3. Today was Kim's debut practice. I felt awkward and weird some reason. Seriously though, Idk why. But haaay, the partners are finally set and hopefully it will work out for everyone. We should just let it be, its Kims debut anyways. :P
4. I have a math analysis quiz tomorrow. Noooooo. Shoot, I hope I get a good grade on it. I feel like I need it.
5. Every time I see you, I feel like stress automatically gets off of me. And I smile. But then I think of something, in the back of my mind, and I lose hope. Its not a good feeling.
6. Wtfff. We're watching this Eddie Murphy movie on tv called Coming to America. Its boring. Hahaha.
7. I feel like such a failure every time I disappoint you. It sucks so muccch. I cant take it anymore. I want to make you happy. Please forgive me. :[
8. For the first time, I felt really awkward with you. I know that I probably shouldnt, but whatevs.
9. Im actually excited to start wearing hoodies and jackets. :D
10. Hmmm, I just found out that the skin on my legs are pretty sensitive.
11. I need to learn how to cook real Filipino food. Hahaha.
12. Yesterday was the first day I wore my glasses to school this year. Haha.
13. Wow, that was a really boring fact.
14. Woooohooo. Isiah is Key Club's treasurer. :]
15. Uh, its time for me to finish my math homework and eat dinner. Later guuuys.

It'll be okay.

1. Kirbys first day at work today! :D
2. I didnt get much sleep last night. But I had dreams about you. It almost felt realistic.
3. Hmm, Im kinda enjoying this weather. I missed wearing sweaters. :]
4. He was gay and turned back? How do you turn back? FML. HAHA.
5. Youre welcome; its nice to know that even though we dont agree on some things, I can still be of some help towards you and your situation. And seriously, Im not right on a lot of things. But thanks for the compliment.
6. The day kinda just started, so I dont have much to say.
7. Im pretty excited for Confirmation 1 Class this year! I feel like Im going to learn a lot of stuff that I shouldve learned a lonnnnng time ago.
8. "Were you born again?"
"No, I did it right the first time. I was born Catholic."

:D <3

Ya gotta big egooooo.

1.Today was aiiight.
2. It got better once Camille picked me up from afterschooool. :D Btw, it was the first time me and bestfriend hung out together, with just us.
3. I didnt think I would feel that lonely without you. Im already surrounded by so many smiling faces. But inside, I kept feeling unpleasant. What a lame B day.
4. FACADE meeting today! Im excited for the summit we're planning. More youth need to come out! I promise, its fun. :]
5. Too bad you didnt comprehend what I wrote on your back. D:
6. I miss writing notes to people.
7. A lot of people kept asking me what was wrong. Looks like I suck at hiding my emotions. But wait, I wasnt even hiding any negativity. At least, I wasnt trying.
8. A lot of people are guilty of sugarcoating. Its disappointing, but then again.. I have been guilty before.
9. I think Im learning to be more tolerant. My acts of kindness towards people are increasing.
10. Man. I cant think right noooow. Too much on my mind.
11. I'll come back later. Bye.

I learn something new everyday.

Marlon Agno - 9:45pm
oh as i was saying

aerlier

earlier

humans tend to emphasize negative thigns more than positive

no matter what

it's just human nature

and like

the had a ratio

Marlon Agno - 9:46pm
for a succesful marriage

happy times need to outweight negative times 5 to 1

pretty interesting

Even when the sky is falling down.

1. Im really bored. Ive done two bullitens on myspace. I dont feel like doing my homework. :[
2. The feeling that I get is so fuzzy, but its satisfying. I yearn to feel this way once again.
3. Wow, those two were like hours ago. Ive been procrastinating here and there. But Im almost done with my math homework! Then I have to finish my DECA essay, print my english essay, and finish my APHG homework. Gaaaaay. D:
4. I need to update my iPod.
5. I want to learn to do hair and makeup really well. Even though I dont wear makeup often.
6. hmmm, I wonder how many people came out to the APICS meeting today. It was so crowded in Mrs. Marcia's room; it was so haaaawt. Im so excited for whats to come of APICS. :]
7. Today I felt good in 4th block. I really think we're getting somewhere with this friendship! It was so nice to share a laugh with you like that. Its been overdue since hm, sixth grade. Haha.
8. Whoooop. Free APICS shirt for helping clean up Mrs. Marcia's room. ;D
9. In marketing, I read GMH and MLIA with Adrian. It was fun. Hahaha. Boolean not quite + and -. HAHA.
10. SHOOT. Speaking of marketing, I need to finish my DECA essay. Man.
11. Tri-M Music Honor Society after schoool tomorrow. Maybe Key Club if theyre still recycling?
12. Terrible, terrible, terrible things.
13. Time to finish all my homework. D:
14. Goodnight starlit skies. <3

Fulfilled.

Thank you. You make me feel so :D
Goodnight beautifuls.

Oh, Filipino time.

1. Shooooot. Always late to practice. Who cares, Im used to it.
2. Your morning voice is so amusing. I dont even know why. Hahaha. Thanks for keeping me company and staying on the phone just listening to me talk to Camille. That was probably really boring though. Sorry, haha. xP Oh and, Hello Mr. Sales Associate. :] Sounds so accomplishing. Haha.
3. For some reason, when Kyle got to the practice I became happy. I suddenly smiled. Its nice to know that hes been in my life since I was like 5? We dont get all personal with each other and stuff, but I sttil feel comfortable when hes around.
4. When we were eating lunch at Auntie Julies house, we started talking about being pregnant, and whether we would want a natural birth or C-section. Awkward. And there were more boys there than girls. HAHA.
5. I opened 3 crabs for Sunshine. :] I felt reliable. Hahaha.
6. It basically makes me feel like a failure when you and you talk to me like that. It makes me want to stand up for myself and say something, but I didnt find the courage. But if I did say something, I would end up at fault anyways. I would be the bad person.
7. I really want to drive. Shooooot. But I cant even get a permit until February. Hahaha.
8. Kay, Im out of things to say.

Just smile and the world will smile along with you.

1. I really like the song "Send it On" from Disney Channel. Its so beautiful. :D
2. At first I wanted to do it for the lulz, but now I actually want it. I actually want to become Sophomore Homecoming Princess with Adrian Castro. I think it would be fun.
3. Just like you, I want to be able to comfort all of my friends. Just like you, I want to be humble. Just like you, I want to keep living life regardless of what's going on in the back of my mind.
4. "I wish I could change, I wish I could change, I wish I could stop saying the same old things. I wish I could be who you want me to be, I wish I could stop being the same old me."
5. Youre almost perfect. It scares me sometimes, but I always find myself mesmerized or amused. It actually sucks. D: I realized that this whole time I shouldve missed you. Im sorry.
6. We are slowly drifting apart from each other. But then again, it feels like theres nothing missing in life. I wonder why. You used to be the only thing I looked forward to on a daily basis. I counted how many words you said to me today; I only needed 2 fingers.
7. New goal in life: Watch Disney on Ice with someone special.
8. Why am I only in the mood to listen to slow, love songs right now? Weird.
9. I wish this was easy. I wish I could somehow slip it into our conversations everyday. I wish that I wasnt afraid. Wait, I dont wish for this. I pray for it all the time.
10. Now I know what you mean. It feels so disappointing when people only talk to you when they need help with homework or something. Or when people only talk to you when you two are in the same crowd.
11. Its only been the second week of school and Im already procrastinating and becoming lazy. I have to change that. I want to make my parents proud again.
12. Speaking of parents, I want to have a heartwarming conversation with my father. I tell my mommy almost everything. Shes my best friend at home.
13. If the both of you opened up, I think I would be able to make more of a difference in both of your lives. Or I would try to, at least.
14. Man. I really miss Canada. I felt so comfortable and at peace over there. No worries. I had welcoming family members, beautiful weather outside, and a church nearby where Jesus waited for me to adore Him.
15. I never want to write a song or tell a story where the world finds out that my heart is broken. But then again, this world is broken itself.
16. You told me that I have a beautiful soul. Before you said that, I thought my day was really good. But you made it amazing. Thank you for you. If I ever tell you that I hate you and I never want to talk to you ever again, Im lying.
17. Sometimes I feel guilty when Im around you. And I probably shouldnt cause youre a really good person. And I dont think I would ever want to do anything wrong to you or hurt you. But lately, I always tell myself, "Aw man. Im a hypocrite."
18. Yesterday, Kuya was being so arrogant with Mommy. I wanted to do something. But all I did was stay and my room and continue on tokbox. Ugh, Im lame. I will be here for you, Mommy. I promise.
19. I wish I was more helpful to my parents. But most especially to my grandparents. I always feel like I need to step up and be the grandaughter they always wanted me to be. It always makes me feel beautiful on the inside when Im doing my own business in the house and my lola is just gazing at me with a pleasant smile.
20. Its almost time to leave for the Pyc meeting. I actually miss Pyc. I actually miss all of you guys. I feel like we've been separated for a while now. Im so used to always having you guys around.
21. Time to be somebody. Goodbye world. :]

Give love a try.

1. Im so excited for everything to just get going and busy. Haha. I got interviewed today for Historian for Key Club. If there are spots open for APICS, I'd like to try to run. :D I need to start my essay soon for DECA Historian! Whooop whooop, I love extra-curricular stufff. Haha.
2. Key Club meeting was aiiight. It was really short. My interview was pretty good, I guess. JC tied my shoes. I gave Kim my number. Im running against Erika Wise, Allan Frances, and Elaine. Well, not against Elaine. I want to be historian with her. Haha. I traced JC's rat. I found out that Nadia weighs 94 pounds. "Idk. Maybe I'll go to prom with like Tonetti. HAHAHAHA." Sarah kept texting me while she was already with me. Haha.
3. My feet hurt from Kim's practice. Haha. I hope we get that pretty waltz move Uncle Red taught us. It feels so beautiful when its done right. I wonder if Marlon is going to be my permanent partner.
4. I hope I did okay on the math analysis quiz today. I have three quizzes tomorrow. Shooooot. D:
5. I cant help but smile everytime I see you. AH. And all of us girls laugh about it all the time, but its so true. Gawsh. Hahaha.
6. Hmmmm. I keep thinking about whether or not I should start a lookbook. But naaaah, too lazy.
7. When I realized that my math teacher is a Miss and my bus driver is a Miss .. I wondered what its like to be at that age and be single. I wonder if they feel lonely, or something. Idk why. Hahaha.
8. I like having serious conversations with Jornel Torres and Adrian Castro. :]
9. So I think its official that Adrian and I are running for Homecoming Court. HAHA. "Just for the lulz." We're going to team up with Isiah on the whole advertising part of it.
10. Noooooo. I still have to do my final draft for my turf map and write an essay about it. Gay. And I forgot to ask Mr. Quick about the scale and stuff. Gay.
11. Oh yeah, my title of this post is "Give love a try." because I was watching Jonas today, and that was the title of the song Joe sang for Stella on kareoke. The song was actually pretty cute.
12. I want more v-necks. And I want a pair of thick framed glasses. But I doubt mommy and daddy will ever by me a pair of glasses again, since I already have contacts.
13. Hmmm. I think its time to take out my contacts, do my homework, study for my quizzes, and meet with AJ and Jor on tokbox at eight. :D
14. Peace out. ;]