My mind is overflowing with uselessness.

1. I need to clear my throat and voice out a few things to you.
2. Its saddening that you can just question that, without much background.
3. If I could, I would step up to the plate and tell you straight up what I believe in and whats inside of my heart. Intercede for me, Mama Mary.
4. Speaking of Mama Mary, it hurts when people ask, "Why do you worship Mary?"
5. But the thing is, we dont worship Mary. We love her. We honor her. Just like every other mother, Mama Mary is deservant of our love. To be conceived without sin, to be a virgin, to give birth to our God, Jesus Christ. What more must she do to earn your affection? What more must she go through? She sacrificed her only son for us sinners. She watched Jesus Christ be tortured, be neglected. For what? For us. Us, human beings who continuously fall into sin. Human beings full of flaws and imperfection. She watched her own Son be crucified on the Cross. She watched her Son shed blood. She is the first natural tabernacle of our Savior. We dont pray to Mama Mary. We ask for her intercession. We ask for her assistance. We ask her to intercede for us. We pray to Jesus Christ through Mama Mary. Mama Mary; with an Immaculate Heart, she accepted Gods Will to give birth to our Lord Jesus Christ. She is the Queen of Heaven and Earth. Is she not worth a slight portion within your heart? You love your mother. Jesus loved His mother. We claim to be followers of Jesus Christ. We claim that we have a desire to follow Gods Will. Jesus Christ, our God, loved His mother. Why cant we do the same?
6. Ate Amy told me: "If he doesnt know what to say, then you know youre hitting him at his heart."
7. I saw you, but I kept walking. Pretending like my eyes, my mind, my heart werent focused on you. And you know what I told myself? You know what I tell myself every freaking time this happens? "He'll talk to you if he really wants to." Stop proving my heart wrong. It hurts.
8. God created me for a reason. God created me to give all of my love away to someone. God created me to follow His Will. God created me with original sin, but He granted me the choice to become His Servant; even if the world turned away from him. God created me for someone. If that someone isnt of this world, God created me just for Him.
9. Ive been praying for you every single day. And almost every single time I pray.
10. I hope you guys had a nice day today.

"And all things, whatever you ask in prayer, believing, you will recieve." Matthew 21:22

Through Jesus and Mary,

Friends forever. :D

Youre still beautiful to me.

1. Today was the first day I made my own sushi. Then mommy and I experimented, and I made tempura rolls. :D So good. Haha.
2. Today was the first day we were quiet when we were walking to fourth block. Today was not the day for us.
3. Adrian128 xD - 4:57pm
Man.
I ruined it.
riagracee - 4:58pm
Its whatever.
Dont worry about it, silly.
Something this small cant ruin us!
Adrian128 xD - 4:59pm
Because you're like the spoon to my kool-aid that I stole from Nolan!
HAHAHAHAHA.
4. My stomach hurts. I ate way too much. D:
5. Lately, all Ive been wanting to do is sing my heart out. All daaaay longg. Or make a cover with someone. Or just have a jamming session.
6. I know it may not make sense, or maybe you just dont want to, but I think life would be better for the both of us if you werent trapping all of your feelings and thoughts inside of yourself.
7. Your smile is sooooo pretty. Man. Hahaha.
8. Another thing to add to my schedule: Chemistry quiz tomorrow. :[ APICS 2ND GENERAL MEETING ON THURSDAY IN THE SCHOLA. Owwww Owwwww. Im stoked. :D
9. Im sleeepy already.
10. Its been like, 3 hours since I started blogging this post. Hahha.
11. And its been like, long enough since we've had a conversation that really mattered.
12. ... Oh well. Time to go study and tokbox my life away.
13. Speaking of tokbox, this made me giggle for a few seconds.

14. Kay, goodbye.

"Kapag naging tayo, ituturing kita na parang package.

Cause I'll handle you with care."

<3 :D

Yesterday was better.

1.Yesterday made me feel a lot better, I think. I just kept myself busy the whole time, so it was good.
2. I wish I was good enough on the guitar to play Beauty in the Breakdown by The Scene Aesthetic. Or if someone would just sing it to me.
3. I have a AP Human Geography and Math Analysis Test tomorrow. Im going to cry. D:
4. We went to the mall yesterday and I got four new v-necks and a Hello Kitty cellphone charm. :]
5. St. Lukes flea market yesterday! :D I got, three dresses, a white vest, a beige high-waisted skirt, gray sweater. Hoooray.
6. Now I can see the improvements from the stuff Im learning in chorus. Haha. & Im proud of AMP43; we seem to be doing very well with our music. And even better, "Singing is praying twice." --St. Augustine. <3
7. Maaan, I still need to make APHG flashcards.
8. Schedule for this week: Pokemon Club. xD Or Sophomore Class afterschool on Tuesday. Singing at the novena at SanLo. DECA Officers Meeting afterschool on Wednesday. Kims debut practice? Singng again at the novena, either Wednesday or Thursday. WORKING MY BUTT OFF TO RAISE MY GRADES. D:
9. Haaaay, I have my outfit for tomorrow, I think. Haha.
10. I hope you have a beautiful day today. <3

Always.

"And I'll wait til forever is through
Whether or not you love me
I'll be loving you
I'll wait til forever is through
Whether or not you love me
I'll be loving you
I'll be loving you.."

1.Today your smile gave me a pinch of fear.
2.Now that I look back, maybe I never knew how you felt.
3. I like that out of all the people in this world, youre the one gives me hope.
4. Hm, I really need to talk to you and update you. I miss you.
5. Its so crazy, you and I still seem to be connected through both of our lives.
6. Thank you for listening to me today.
7. I dont want to tell you about this stuff yet.
8. I cant imagine that; its just not right.
9. Looks like there really is only one man on this world that won't break me apart, ever: God. <3
10. "Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of age." Amen. Matthew 28:19-20.

Oh wow.

Either you need to tell me what's going on, or you need to lighten up. Or maybe both. Im living my life feeling like its my purpose to keep you happy and satisfy your every need. And I feel like I make it happen. But then you crash and burn inside every single time. Every time, negativity pours out of you. Youre supposed to be optimistic, remember? Stop smiling at me if the things I do mean nothing. And sometimes they do make you feel better, but thats just temporary. Fml.