Hello again.

Sorry I havent been posting lately. Because of that, I decided to post now. :] First of all, guess whaaat?! I JUST FINISHED BAKING BROWNIES. Yaaay. Hahaha, anywaaays. Im not sure if you read or check up on my blog usually, and I know you dont like when people talk to you indirectly through their blogs .. but I think Im going to right now. So, Im sorry. D:

You asked me what if you didn't pursue the Catholic faith anymore. You asked me what would happen if you became Christian. I was scared, really scared. Not because I figured I should just give up, cause thats definitely not an option. But because I really think what we're doing is right, but differences in faith and religion leads to .. well, differences. Its hard when both people in a relationship arent on the same viewpoint. Barriers become formed, and its hard to bring up the topic of religions. Then at the point of marriage, if the couple gets there, a compromise is made. Usually, right? Usually one switches to the religion the other one is in. I know I cant leave Catholicism. Its for me, and I already know that Catholicism is THE faith. Because I couldnt tell you directly at the time, I'll probably say it on Friday. I dont want to mention it here, cause it'll just ruin Friday. I'd rather be open and straight forward in your presence. But please, dont give up on this yet. You have so much more to see. I was on a really optimistic viewpoint of my life, and of yours. Just know that I believe you were born and raised into the Catholic faith for a reason. Just know that Im not giving up on helping you become a better person. And just because you didnt have a good example of Catholics when you were growing up, doesnt mean you cant be exposed to them now. And even though you never really practiced the ways of Catholicism, theres still time. God waits for everyone. If your heart isnt completely open, if your eyes havent completely seen Gods Light, then God will wait till then. God can wait until youre prepared, until youre ready to live your life according to God's Will. I hope Friday will help you out, a lot. Im sure Auntie has so much in store .. for the both of us. Not only is she here to help you out with your questions, but Im going to learn from her too. I always do. So please, dont back out. If you have a question, let it be heard. Dont worry, okay? And no matter what, whether you stay or leave, I'll still be here praying for you. You'll still have a place in my heart. And remember, we're letting God lead the way through our lives, right? Ah, pray for me. I need it .. a lot. I feel like I know where Im going with this, I feel like Im the one who knows exactly what Im doing, I feel like Im doing absolutely the right thing. But at the same time, Im nervous. Im scared. God, hold my hand. I need you now, Lord. And please, whatever happens .. help me to accept Your Will. Help me to erase what I want, and give me Your Preference. I hope one day, no matter how long or short it will take, I will know that what Im doing is right in Your Eyes. Open my heart, help me offer myself up to You.