So,

I just realized that I cry easily. Much more than I used to. I dont know why. And today, was the first time I felt lonely in a long time. Like, I was serious about it. I felt so sad and lonely after reading those. But I was laughing, I guess it was a cover-up. I think Im getting better at covering up my feelings. Thats not a good thing, though. And sometimes, I feel like Im losing the people I always opened up. Sometimes, when I talk to them about you, I feel like Im just wasting their time. And that maybe theyre tired of hearing that kind of stuff. Why do these feelings always consume my happiness? I hate this. This sucks. I need You.

"“when the person you love tries to leave, hold on to them. it may hurt, but all they need is to realize how much you really do care.”"

Oh hay, dreamboys.

1. I wish Jesse Barrera was cute. Haha, seriously. I wish his physical appearance could match the level of his vocals. That would be hawt. Either way, Jesse Barrera's voice is gorgeous.
2. All this talk about Jay Legaspi finally persuaded me to check him out. I love his voice. And his song Friend Zone and When the Lights Burn Out. :D
3. Gabe Bondoc, I love everything about you. Dont change. <3 HAHAH.
4. So many people say that AJ Rafael is a cocky person. Im not sure if I believe that or not. But I can say that Gabe's voice is much more alluring. Then again, theyre both awesome musicians.
5. Omgggg, if anyone out there has a voice like Andrew Garcia, they are something special. I love every single cover Andrew Garcia has done in the past. Most especially his Gravity cover with Esna and Sunday Morning and Lost Without You cover with Angie. Owww owwwww. <3

Dear you,

It's hard for me to even think of living my life without you here. And I know that it hurts you to see that I still feel the same about you, even though you're already adjusting. But sometimes, I wish I could have made you understand how much I could offer, and how much I was willing to sacrifice. I'm doing fine, yes. I seem to be much better at coping than I ever was before. I know I shouldn't; but why do I feel like I should be forcing myself to get over you? Cause obviously, I don't want to. Then again, I should keep an open mind and heart. Tell me if there is a way how because my mind is overflowing with thoughts of you, and my heart continuously beats for you.

Please, pray for me.

Love,
Ria.

Dear Lord,

I've come to finally realize, with the help of Ate Rachel, what True Love really is.
You gave up Your everything, for us. You knew that it was going to be painful, yet You didnt back out.
Even if we decided to turn our backs on You, You would still be here for us.
And no matter how long it takes us to prepare ourselves, You'll be waiting patiently.
And even if we forget to talk to You on a daily basis, You're still willing to listen.
And although we constantly hurt You, Your love still remains undying.
So thats the kind of love I want. Thats the kind of love I want to experience.
No, not the ones in movies, not the ones in songs. Not anymore.
I want the love You have showed us. I want the love You share with us.
I want the love that I should have acknowledged a long, long time ago.
I love You, Lord. May Your Love be sufficient for me.

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And this is why I am still that hopeful, wishful romantic. Only more considerate.
That even if you provide me with inconveniences, I will still stand beside you.
If it means that I must wait for you, I can occupy myself with other matters.. but you'll be the one I'd like to see in the future.
And even if we dont talk everyday, or even every other day, whatever conversation I get to share with you will be worthwhile.
Dont worry if you feel that you have hurt me; my love for you still goes on.
No matter what; whether you are the one for me or not; I will love you.
Always and forever. Like I told you before. <3

In Gods name we pray.
Amen.

Love,
Ria.

Dear AJ,

Our time has come.
Im sorry for letting you down.
But, it looks like we dont have anymore room for each other.
And suprisingly, I dont care. Yeah thats right.
I said I dont care. For once I want to be oblivious.
Im going to pretend that nothing happened because I feel better that way.
Please go away. Let me be myself and dont look at me.
I guess I should thank you for everything.
Then again, its kay. Bye.

What?!

Who knew blogspot wasnt blocked at school?! >:]
Anyways, Im in first block right now.
Doing the usual: NOTHING. :D HAHAH.
Except tetrisfriends.com.
And tumblr.
And listening to my iPod.
And now this.
Thank you, Mr. Phelps.

Love, Ria.

PS: Guess what? I got a 100 average in this class.
OH HECK YES. [: