The truth, I believe.

So Nghia talked to him yesterday and got the truth from JC.

10:06:01 PM): hey
(10:06:07 PM): jc
(10:06:37 PM): hey nghia
(10:06:53 PM): real talk
(10:07:01 PM): alright
(10:07:09 PM): so i talked to a couple people
(10:07:18 PM): and i found out what happened
(10:07:21 PM): and what you told ria
(10:07:24 PM): was a dick move
(10:07:30 PM): not even kidding dude
(10:07:49 PM): what?
(10:08:00 PM): you told her you were just using her as back up
(10:08:14 PM): i told her that
(10:08:16 PM): because
(10:08:19 PM): she won't believe anything else
(10:08:27 PM): anything else ?
(10:08:29 PM): yeah
(10:08:32 PM): i told her a lot more
(10:08:33 PM): like that ?
(10:08:34 PM): like the TRUTH
(10:08:39 PM): but she won't take it
(10:08:44 PM): she keeps saying that i'm lying
(10:08:49 PM): so i just told her what she wanted to hear
(10:08:50 PM): what is the 'truth' ?
(10:08:57 PM): that i liked Sarah
(10:09:01 PM): and i was just being nice to Ria
(10:09:05 PM): i'm nice to a lot of girls
(10:09:09 PM): and then all of sudden
(10:09:10 PM): she likes me
(10:09:12 PM): and idk
(10:09:21 PM): so i just told her what she wanted to hear
(10:10:29 PM): so really after you started liking sarah
(10:10:33 PM): you didnt like ria any more ?
(10:11:06 PM): i never liked Ria
(10:11:07 PM): wtf
(10:11:15 PM): wtf
(10:11:16 PM): i always liked Sarah
(10:11:19 PM): mann
(10:11:22 PM): f everyone
(10:11:25 PM): what about that time that you told everyone about ira ?
(10:11:30 PM): ria
(10:12:01 PM): what about it?
(10:12:04 PM): i just said that she was cool
(10:12:05 PM): and interesting
(10:12:08 PM): and how you cant choose between her and sarah ?
(10:12:46 PM): because
(10:12:47 PM): like
(10:12:50 PM): i liked Sarah a lot
(10:12:58 PM): and i didn't know that she liked me back
(10:13:00 PM): and with Ria
(10:13:02 PM): she liked me
(10:13:07 PM): and id idn't want to just turn her down
(10:13:11 PM): that's why i couldn't choose
(10:14:10 PM): you got messed up by everyone dude
(10:14:19 PM): because they only know bits and pieces
(10:14:33 PM): and then the story got mixed up
(10:14:35 PM): and what not
(10:14:49 PM): now youre hated by a lot
(10:14:52 PM): of people
(10:15:43 PM): i know
(10:15:45 PM): dammit
(10:15:48 PM): haha
(10:15:51 PM): whatever
(10:16:31 PM): i'd rather be hated though
(10:16:35 PM): if it makes everyone feel better
(10:16:41 PM): whys that ?
(10:16:55 PM): because
(10:16:58 PM): if everyone knew the truth
(10:17:06 PM): then it'd make Ria look stupid
(10:17:09 PM): and i don't want that

So I wasnt a backup to you, huh? I was just one of the girls you were being nice & friendly to. I was just one of those girls who thought a little extra from the things you did. I was vulnerable to your actions that I thought were cute & sweet. I tend to miss it though, but Ive moved ahead in this part of my life. Plus, its not that I need a certain someone to be able to hold my hand now. Ive got other special people. :] Like friends and family of course.

Anyways .. I still want to take the blame for it all. But I dont know how. I want to say sorry for all the words I bombarded you with, but Im sure sorry wont be enough for you. Just like your sorry wasnt enough for me. But from now on, I dont want to hurt you because Im disappointed in your indecisiveness and inexperience in difficult situations. As a friend, I should be pulling you up when you fall, I should be backing you up when you dont know how to defend yourself. And I dont think Im mad at you anymore. I shouldnt be. It should all be over by now. I wish I couldve taken your sorry the first time, instead of telling so many people how you hurt me, when youre the one who should be hurting more.